Diary of a MTT Grinder Wannabe

[Ant040689]

Cashed for over $10,000 over the last two nights with two single $4.2k scores, one today, the other yesterday, had two other big final tables but couldn't win the flips. My profits in these big binks have been protected nicely by me getting solid cashes elsewhere to cover the buy ins.

Still only playing the turbos, and have found my feet quite nicely. I may well be asking for backing tomorrow before the big $700 TCOOP main event if i can't qualify on my own dime, so if you are interested keep a look out in the staking thread. Probably will sell half, but depends what mood i am in, i may well just think fuck it there are no turbos over 200f anyway online why not have a one off shot, it will only come once a year after all.

[Ant040689]

Literally just now cashed for a further $3000, trying to resist the temptation to just go for it in the 2100 high roller turbo tonight. I think i will put out a cheeky staking thread for me for that high roller actually and see if anyone is interested before it starts later. I know it is very late to go for it, but i would take 1/4 of that buy in for myself and ask for backing for the 3/4.

Going to try and qualify for the 700f tonight, but sleep for now.

[Ant040689]

I have put up a staking thread on http://blondepoker.com/forum/index.php?topic=56614.0 if you are interested.

[Ant040689]

Apols in advance for some spammy fb messages to anyone i have on there about the staking, you should know me never to have done this before!

[Ant040689]

SOLD OUT.

Happy it went so quickly. Just need at least an hours nap to be ready for tonight. Need to get to sleeeep.

[Ant040689]

Had a crazy crazy weekend starting on friday, when i took down 5k in profits, then on saturday i took down 8k in profits, before i got big headed and thought i play turbos and this sunday has the two biggest turbo tournies ever, why not give that a bash. Despite me not being anywhere near rolled to lump up the 1275 dollars i did to play the 2100 and 700 dollars tourns (was backed 75% in the 2100). I lost 2k last night when all was said and done and to be honest i was content enough going for the shot because there is no way i would be complaining if i had taken down either of those huge tournies.

I have now got a roll over 20k dollars for the first time in a while and the true test will be to see if I can show enough discipline to just carry on winning and apply myself well.

What i have come to learn which i think a lot of people overlook is that every one is human and we are all privy to being at the mercy of our emotions. To say i must not ever tilt again while playing poker or ever play bad again is just unfeasible and will never happen even to the greatest of players. All one can do is try to prepare the best they can, relax knowing they have done all they can do while playing their session and feel calm in the fact they are being reasonable. To lambaste yourself for a losing session when beforehand you prepared the best you could, or you had a couple of lapses of concentration during the grind, is wrong. You need to give yourself a bit of slack.

Which is what I am going to now. I am however going to lash myself for not preparing well. I am going to have tonight off because i need a break after that weekend, leaving today free to sort out the grind pad and have a feel whether or not i should mess with the 12 tables i average in a grind to get it up to around 20. As i play turbos only now, i think playing that many tables isn't as harsh on me as if i was playing that many slower tourns as the dynamics are a lot more basic in the turbos.

Doing a quiz night tonight and am going to be the dead weight in the group. One of those guys that is pretty intelligent but ridiculously uneducated out of my own negligence towards wanting to learn new stuff. To be honest though my view is that learning general knowledge for that sake and that alone is pointless when it doesn't go towards a certain short term gain, like monetary, or possibly to learn more about the background to a job that a fit girl has in an attempt for an old fashioned wooing. Even i know that is a flawed approach because learning is supposed to enrich the soul and widen your horizons, which i think would be healthy as i eat, drink and sleep, pizza, coke and poker.

Also need to work out what tournaments to play. I have a wide berth of tourns that i play at the moment but know there are some i shouldn't be playing. Mixing tourns of dissimilar entrants as well can be infuriating as there is a difference in variation. Also i am coupling 5rs in with 100f and that is a little bit silly. I am probably going to try and limit all tourns over 500 runners to nil and mainly conentrate on tourns with 200 max runners.

I am also starting to incorporate standard timed tourns back into the mix but being very careful in doing so. I am being a bit of a blind structure nit here but have realised that the slower tourns on different sites vary a lot in pace and i am going to start adding the quicker standard tourns into the mix to ease myself back in. These are mostly found on Ongame and IPN with their 12 minute blinds and steeper structures. Going to add more of those in until eventually i become adept at playing a 15 mins blinds tourn alongside a 5 mins blinds tourn because that skill is tough, as you have to constantly change your game from table to table.

Still going to deploy the technique that is have the slower tourns as some of the bigger buy ins of the day, to make up for their lack of pace which will help with my patience. Also i need to tally all of the tourns i could play in a night and then select which ones i should and see how much it all comes up to. So i can see how much of the BR is being used at one time. I have decided that playing with 10% so $2000ish a night is what i probably will end up having as my cap, where is will probably end up me using only 7.5%. This is quite high i know, but feel there is value being missed if i don't try to play all the available high end turbo tourns online, aside from the odd 200 dollars one on pokerstars.

Even on a bad night i would expect to make up at least 2.5% if i have wagered 7.5%, so my losses will never me being losing ALL of the nights buy ins. To be honest it is very hard to judge all of the what i should be wagering a day malarkey because if i was to have a 16 hour stint playing on average 16 tables at about an average buy in of say 30 dollars and a rate of 22 tourns an hour, counting only 14 hours towards this as it takes a while to get up to 16 tables, you get 9240 dollars. Hmmmm that is something to think about actually, i will have to be careful. That basically means if i have a prolonged period of tilt for 2 hours say that is potentially 1300 dollars up in smoke.

Come back to me with suggestions if you think the br plan is wayward or any tips, because i want to be doing things correctly from now on with a sound base so it will always be onwards and upwards instead of dilly dallying with a pretty measly BR.

[Ant040689]

Was thinking some posts back about going on a 530 calories a day strip diet to trim off the 4 stone of excess weight i have but have decided against it despite being convinced by a lighter life specialist in person that i will not feel any bad side effects.

Have just read of too many GP's that disapprove of doing it and most importantly to me and was the real gamechanger was that apparently you can get dizzy spells and loss of concetration and with poker going well at the moment to do anything to hinder the progress would be idiotic.

I am going to set an appointment today with a personal trainer at my gym to get them to put me on a diet and workout regime and then i am going to turn beast mode on and go for it. Will want to do this because in the summer of this year i am going to have my last real go at playing semi pro football for a semi decent outfit. Most probably up front even though for the last ten years i have been a goalkeeper. However i have always felt that the only reason i have been in goal is because of my lack of fitness and i think that i actually can do a job up front.

Will stop talking about it and actually get on with it.

[LOJ]

Had a crazy crazy weekend starting on friday, when i took down 5k in profits, then on saturday i took down 8k in profits, before i got big headed and thought i play turbos and this sunday has the two biggest turbo tournies ever, why not give that a bash. Despite me not being anywhere near rolled to lump up the 1275 dollars i did to play the 2100 and 700 dollars tourns (was backed 75% in the 2100). I lost 2k last night when all was said and done and to be honest i was content enough going for the shot because there is no way i would be complaining if i had taken down either of those huge tournies.

I have now got a roll over 20k dollars for the first time in a while and the true test will be to see if I can show enough discipline to just carry on winning and apply myself well.

What i have come to learn which i think a lot of people overlook is that every one is human and we are all privy to being at the mercy of our emotions. To say i must not ever tilt again while playing poker or ever play bad again is just unfeasible and will never happen even to the greatest of players. All one can do is try to prepare the best they can, relax knowing they have done all they can do while playing their session and feel calm in the fact they are being reasonable. To lambaste yourself for a losing session when beforehand you prepared the best you could, or you had a couple of lapses of concentration during the grind, is wrong. You need to give yourself a bit of slack.

Which is what I am going to now. I am however going to lash myself for not preparing well. I am going to have tonight off because i need a break after that weekend, leaving today free to sort out the grind pad and have a feel whether or not i should mess with the 12 tables i average in a grind to get it up to around 20. As i play turbos only now, i think playing that many tables isn't as harsh on me as if i was playing that many slower tourns as the dynamics are a lot more basic in the turbos.

Doing a quiz night tonight and am going to be the dead weight in the group. One of those guys that is pretty intelligent but ridiculously uneducated out of my own negligence towards wanting to learn new stuff. To be honest though my view is that learning general knowledge for that sake and that alone is pointless when it doesn't go towards a certain short term gain, like monetary, or possibly to learn more about the background to a job that a fit girl has in an attempt for an old fashioned wooing. Even i know that is a flawed approach because learning is supposed to enrich the soul and widen your horizons, which i think would be healthy as i eat, drink and sleep, pizza, coke and poker.

Also need to work out what tournaments to play. I have a wide berth of tourns that i play at the moment but know there are some i shouldn't be playing. Mixing tourns of dissimilar entrants as well can be infuriating as there is a difference in variation. Also i am coupling 5rs in with 100f and that is a little bit silly. I am probably going to try and limit all tourns over 500 runners to nil and mainly conentrate on tourns with 200 max runners.

I am also starting to incorporate standard timed tourns back into the mix but being very careful in doing so. I am being a bit of a blind structure nit here but have realised that the slower tourns on different sites vary a lot in pace and i am going to start adding the quicker standard tourns into the mix to ease myself back in. These are mostly found on Ongame and IPN with their 12 minute blinds and steeper structures. Going to add more of those in until eventually i become adept at playing a 15 mins blinds tourn alongside a 5 mins blinds tourn because that skill is tough, as you have to constantly change your game from table to table.

Still going to deploy the technique that is have the slower tourns as some of the bigger buy ins of the day, to make up for their lack of pace which will help with my patience. Also i need to tally all of the tourns i could play in a night and then select which ones i should and see how much it all comes up to. So i can see how much of the BR is being used at one time. I have decided that playing with 10% so $2000ish a night is what i probably will end up having as my cap, where is will probably end up me using only 7.5%. This is quite high i know, but feel there is value being missed if i don't try to play all the available high end turbo tourns online, aside from the odd 200 dollars one on pokerstars.

Even on a bad night i would expect to make up at least 2.5% if i have wagered 7.5%, so my losses will never me being losing ALL of the nights buy ins. To be honest it is very hard to judge all of the what i should be wagering a day malarkey because if i was to have a 16 hour stint playing on average 16 tables at about an average buy in of say 30 dollars and a rate of 22 tourns an hour, counting only 14 hours towards this as it takes a while to get up to 16 tables, you get 9240 dollars. Hmmmm that is something to think about actually, i will have to be careful. That basically means if i have a prolonged period of tilt for 2 hours say that is potentially 1300 dollars up in smoke.

Come back to me with suggestions if you think the br plan is wayward or any tips, because i want to be doing things correctly from now on with a sound base so it will always be onwards and upwards instead of dilly dallying with a pretty measly BR.

Great read!  If you stick to a structure of tourneys to play, I think you would nail some decent ROI.  Keeping an eye with interest to see how you get on.....

[Ant040689]

Had a crazy crazy weekend starting on friday, when i took down 5k in profits, then on saturday i took down 8k in profits, before i got big headed and thought i play turbos and this sunday has the two biggest turbo tournies ever, why not give that a bash. Despite me not being anywhere near rolled to lump up the 1275 dollars i did to play the 2100 and 700 dollars tourns (was backed 75% in the 2100). I lost 2k last night when all was said and done and to be honest i was content enough going for the shot because there is no way i would be complaining if i had taken down either of those huge tournies.

I have now got a roll over 20k dollars for the first time in a while and the true test will be to see if I can show enough discipline to just carry on winning and apply myself well.

What i have come to learn which i think a lot of people overlook is that every one is human and we are all privy to being at the mercy of our emotions. To say i must not ever tilt again while playing poker or ever play bad again is just unfeasible and will never happen even to the greatest of players. All one can do is try to prepare the best they can, relax knowing they have done all they can do while playing their session and feel calm in the fact they are being reasonable. To lambaste yourself for a losing session when beforehand you prepared the best you could, or you had a couple of lapses of concentration during the grind, is wrong. You need to give yourself a bit of slack.

Which is what I am going to now. I am however going to lash myself for not preparing well. I am going to have tonight off because i need a break after that weekend, leaving today free to sort out the grind pad and have a feel whether or not i should mess with the 12 tables i average in a grind to get it up to around 20. As i play turbos only now, i think playing that many tables isn't as harsh on me as if i was playing that many slower tourns as the dynamics are a lot more basic in the turbos.

Doing a quiz night tonight and am going to be the dead weight in the group. One of those guys that is pretty intelligent but ridiculously uneducated out of my own negligence towards wanting to learn new stuff. To be honest though my view is that learning general knowledge for that sake and that alone is pointless when it doesn't go towards a certain short term gain, like monetary, or possibly to learn more about the background to a job that a fit girl has in an attempt for an old fashioned wooing. Even i know that is a flawed approach because learning is supposed to enrich the soul and widen your horizons, which i think would be healthy as i eat, drink and sleep, pizza, coke and poker.

Also need to work out what tournaments to play. I have a wide berth of tourns that i play at the moment but know there are some i shouldn't be playing. Mixing tourns of dissimilar entrants as well can be infuriating as there is a difference in variation. Also i am coupling 5rs in with 100f and that is a little bit silly. I am probably going to try and limit all tourns over 500 runners to nil and mainly conentrate on tourns with 200 max runners.

I am also starting to incorporate standard timed tourns back into the mix but being very careful in doing so. I am being a bit of a blind structure nit here but have realised that the slower tourns on different sites vary a lot in pace and i am going to start adding the quicker standard tourns into the mix to ease myself back in. These are mostly found on Ongame and IPN with their 12 minute blinds and steeper structures. Going to add more of those in until eventually i become adept at playing a 15 mins blinds tourn alongside a 5 mins blinds tourn because that skill is tough, as you have to constantly change your game from table to table.

Still going to deploy the technique that is have the slower tourns as some of the bigger buy ins of the day, to make up for their lack of pace which will help with my patience. Also i need to tally all of the tourns i could play in a night and then select which ones i should and see how much it all comes up to. So i can see how much of the BR is being used at one time. I have decided that playing with 10% so $2000ish a night is what i probably will end up having as my cap, where is will probably end up me using only 7.5%. This is quite high i know, but feel there is value being missed if i don't try to play all the available high end turbo tourns online, aside from the odd 200 dollars one on pokerstars.

Even on a bad night i would expect to make up at least 2.5% if i have wagered 7.5%, so my losses will never me being losing ALL of the nights buy ins. To be honest it is very hard to judge all of the what i should be wagering a day malarkey because if i was to have a 16 hour stint playing on average 16 tables at about an average buy in of say 30 dollars and a rate of 22 tourns an hour, counting only 14 hours towards this as it takes a while to get up to 16 tables, you get 9240 dollars. Hmmmm that is something to think about actually, i will have to be careful. That basically means if i have a prolonged period of tilt for 2 hours say that is potentially 1300 dollars up in smoke.

Come back to me with suggestions if you think the br plan is wayward or any tips, because i want to be doing things correctly from now on with a sound base so it will always be onwards and upwards instead of dilly dallying with a pretty measly BR.

Great read!  If you stick to a structure of tourneys to play, I think you would nail some decent ROI.  Keeping an eye with interest to see how you get on.....

Cheers. In before i become a sicko. 

[Ant040689]

Early one tonight.

Got 2.5k dollars profit in the bag, finalled a 82 hyper as chip leader then completely fluffed it and came 6th so close to the 4.5k score but got 800. Won a 27 dolla KO for 1.4k and then won a 35 dolla 180 man for 1.7k. Had some close shaves elsewhere as well but couldn't convert.

Have still got my last 8 on the go and none of them are very late on. It is nice to play in this state to know i am just adding to an already nice profit for the day if i get 1500 more in cashes that is 3/4 nights i have made 4k or more in profit.

Long may it continue.

[mondatoo]

Early one tonight.

Got 2.5k dollars profit in the bag, finalled a 82 hyper as chip leader then completely fluffed it and came 6th so close to the 4.5k score but got 800. Won a 27 dolla KO for 1.4k and then won a 35 dolla 180 man for 1.7k. Had some close shaves elsewhere as well but couldn't convert.

Have still got my last 8 on the go and none of them are very late on. It is nice to play in this state to know i am just adding to an already nice profit for the day if i get 1500 more in cashes that is 3/4 nights i have made 4k or more in profit.

Long may it continue.

MBSFN   

[Ant040689]

Early one tonight.

Got 2.5k dollars profit in the bag, finalled a 82 hyper as chip leader then completely fluffed it and came 6th so close to the 4.5k score but got 800. Won a 27 dolla KO for 1.4k and then won a 35 dolla 180 man for 1.7k. Had some close shaves elsewhere as well but couldn't convert.

Have still got my last 8 on the go and none of them are very late on. It is nice to play in this state to know i am just adding to an already nice profit for the day if i get 1500 more in cashes that is 3/4 nights i have made 4k or more in profit.

Long may it continue.

MBSFN   

lol.

Is it bad that i thought of you as i won it?

[mondatoo]

Early one tonight.

Got 2.5k dollars profit in the bag, finalled a 82 hyper as chip leader then completely fluffed it and came 6th so close to the 4.5k score but got 800. Won a 27 dolla KO for 1.4k and then won a 35 dolla 180 man for 1.7k. Had some close shaves elsewhere as well but couldn't convert.

Have still got my last 8 on the go and none of them are very late on. It is nice to play in this state to know i am just adding to an already nice profit for the day if i get 1500 more in cashes that is 3/4 nights i have made 4k or more in profit.

Long may it continue.

MBSFN   

lol.

Is it bad that i thought of you as i won it?

Haha, congrats.

[Ant040689]

Early one tonight.

Got 2.5k dollars profit in the bag, finalled a 82 hyper as chip leader then completely fluffed it and came 6th so close to the 4.5k score but got 800. Won a 27 dolla KO for 1.4k and then won a 35 dolla 180 man for 1.7k. Had some close shaves elsewhere as well but couldn't convert.

Have still got my last 8 on the go and none of them are very late on. It is nice to play in this state to know i am just adding to an already nice profit for the day if i get 1500 more in cashes that is 3/4 nights i have made 4k or more in profit.

Long may it continue.

MBSFN   

lol.

Is it bad that i thought of you as i won it?

Haha, congrats.

cheers. You are obv going to get pwning on them as soon as your luck turns, mine was amazing today. I won by binking a two outer on the river, that isn't to brag but just to show you that a lot of luck is needed to take one of them down.

Didn't do anything with the last 8 tourns i was playing unfortunately and upon count up it is actually 2.1k dollars profit, which still isn't bad.

Got to the final table of a ukipt galway satellite tonight and missed out by two places of getting a seat, a bit gutting, but as long as they run nightly i back myself to get a seat.

Have family in Galway so would be nice to go over there in a couple of weeks time, but i won't unless i satellite in.

[bobby1]

good stuff mate, that post above was a good read.