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Just thought it would be good to open a thread where you can have a bloody good moan about things that have happened in your life that have peed you off.

Angry...That after winning a bursary into THE best school in Scotland at the age of 11 my mother wouldnt let me go because she needed me as the oldest child to babysit after leaving my dad.

That my partner left me when I was 3 months pregnant with my first child.

That the father of my other 2 children turned out to be a paedophile and I only found out 6 weeks after my daughter was born. My 2 sons were redeemed "safe" as he was not in their eyes attracted to boys and therefore I did not "need to know" of accusations made by his daughter from his first marriage.

That my brother at the age of 22 thought he could run across a highway faster than it would take a car to hit him...he was wrong.

Sad...That I have 2 autistic kids and I would sooooooooo like to be in their heads just for 1 day ...
I so want to see the world as they see it just to have some understanding. I have researched autism in a big way to try and figure out how their minds work and interestingly I have figured out that I am probably autistic too and thats why I cant connect. Both my kids are so different but are classed on the same spectrum. My boy is like me at his age and soaks in knowledge but he is so miserable he is borderline depressed at the age of 11. My daughter has language and behavior problems but she is the sweetest ever on a good day. She hates babies/toddlers which is a bit of a problem as she will physically attack them just for looking at her...we dont go out a lot LOL

Annoyed...that after several years of playing poker online Im still rubbish. I know I have the ability and knowledge to take it a step further but I dont. I have also thought long and hard as to why I havent stepped up my game and I know its because I cant commit as much as I would like to. I dont have the time to read up and improve or the funds to move up. I am stuck on donkcity and at the moment and that suits me fine. I have recently been playing the Betfred Womans tourney and loved every minute of it but I have had to ask my sister to watch my kids and although she is happy to do so I just feel bad coz she has 4 kids of her own. Playing live is hard for me.

I think the reason for posting this thread is 1...coz I felt like a good moan but mostly...I played the most ridiculous hand tonight and i cant get it out of my head.

Worried...PMT, school holidays and trying to find proper school shoes with velcro is taking its toll. My 11/12 year old son starts Senior school very soon and has to walk and cross 3 very busy roads..he has the road sense of a 2 year old. It will not do his street cred any good if his mum walks him to school so i have to cross my fingers and hope he survives. The road he has to cross is a black spot and popular for the resident eejit suicidal nutters. I am worried sick and dont know what to do.

Anyway here is a thread to have a good moan about the duff cards dealt in life.

To be honest any moans I have would pail in to insignificance compared to yours. To say you have had a few bad beats in life is an understatement and a wonder that you have maintained your sanity.  ;)

Suzanne

You have amazing strength of character, surviving all that life has thrown at you. You will get your reward one day:) Maybe a set of angel wings?  Im sure of it:)  xx

suzanne,my 10 year lod son is autistic and everyday i wish i could understand what he feels.
joseph will be starting senior school next year and it has been one of my biggest worries for years.do i send him to mainstream school with the few friends it has taken him years to make,or do i send him to a specialist school where he will be the same as all the other kids and become a stereotype for the rest of his life.my main worrie is safety.he would have to catch a bus a short journey on his own to the mainstream school.he has never been anywhere without me or an adult,and i just dont see how he would cope with that(or me).another issue is being able to leave the school without anyone knowing.he is always trying to get out of primary school but at least he always has a teacher with him.not the case at senior school.
you are not alone in your worries hun,for along time i thought i was but its good to talk.ill pm you my number.

FRAN        xxx

Agreed.....and like Fran says ....A problem shared is a problem halved.

You have had a rough time by the sounds of it. Good luck for the future.

I think everyone has some regrets about their past, etc.  We have all had experiences and oppertunities that haven't worked out for whatever reason.  I used to feel annoyed that some important goals that I held as a Kid hadn't became reality.  I recently had a chat with a hippy type geezer who was sitting next to me on the train, he said every thought we have has a frequency. That frequency attracts other similar thoughts to you like a magnet,  for example if you think positive thoughts, you will get a positive response in life, if you think negative thoughts you will get that reality.  I have no idea of the science behind our thoughts, but it made a lot of sense. 

Yesterday, Tim Henman said " At age 16, I wasn't in the top 10 in my age group in the Country, but their was no doubt in my mind I would become a pro player" ( something along those lines, I can't remember his exact wording :-)   )

I am not very good either Suz ( right now  ;) ) and I know many others who are in the same position although they may not admit it . It is a tough game to crack, however I am sure when you are sat at the table you completely believe you have what it takes to win, otherwise you wouldn't even try.  If you have played well one time in your short playing career then you have it in you to do it everytime. We have all had games when we felt like we were the best players alive, the tough part is getting to a level where you can repeat excellence every time you play.  If you have played well one time, you can do it many times.  The stage between performing well one time and performing well everytime is called 'learning'. It doesn't matter if it is 7 years you have played or 20 years, if you want it enough then I am sure it will happen  :) . Fortunately poker has no time limits.  I don't doubt I will get there and I believe you will as well .

Suze,

if venting on here works for you, then go ahead.  Hope you're feeling a bit better now that you've offloaded.  I've been through a bit too lately, but am on the up.  My advice to anyone feeling angry, sad, annoyed, worried, whatever - don't try to bury it - it'll end up eating you up (I did this for a long time, to my detriment).  Scary as it is to tackle things head on and put your wellbeing first, it really is the only way to go if you want to keep your sanity.

I've said enough.  Hope to see you at the weekend, if not, in Reading.

Take care

Claire xxx

Wise words.   Very true.   Holding it all in was nearly my downfall - 18 months on things 'seem' to be better.  Discovering online poker (and this forum in particular) has been my crutch.  For those who are not able to get out, for whatever reason, an online community can be a lifesaver.

You have amazing strength of character Suze. Thank you for posting that.

Mich
xx

only thing i get angry about is when i get cold decked

dont mind playing bad or getting out played but i hate it when i get cold decked


as for life as the saying goes shit happens

Suzanne,

I'd love to give you a big hug right now.
My wife has gone to the US and i've been looking after the kids and dogs for two weeks, my youngest son is extremely hyperactive and I must admit i've struggled to cope with him at times especially as i've come down with a cold/chest infection this week, been feeling really sorry for myself. Feel a bit pathetic after seeing what you've had to put up with.
However I wouldn't care how uncool your son would feel, for the first couple of weeks i'd cross the roads with him until your confident he'll be ok.
As for your poker, you know your not far off just keep playing and enjoying it and you will keep learning and improving.

Take care.

I watched a film the other day about a single mother with 2 autistic boys called Miracle Run - http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0419967/

Not usuaully the sort of film id watch but i found it pretty emotional. You might wana check it out.

Hope you feel better for having a moan Suzanne - it does help!

Tracey x

Crikey Suz I know you suggested others could vent their moans on this thread but I'd feel embarrassed about posting any of mine here as they are just pathetic and insignificant compared to what you've had to endure.

Credit to you for coping/having coped and I hope posting that made you feel a little better.

Best of luck to your boy in senior school and I agree with Brummie that it's a good idea all round to maybe accompany him on the way for a while when he starts. It'll make you feel better that's for sure, although please don't kiss him goodbye at the gates of course!  :P

Thanks for sharing.  :respect:

You think thats bad??  So I had aces....

Seriously though, that sucks.  Hope everything works out

Hey Hunny,

Think of this.........

........ you have endured so much over the years and have been able to conquer all before you. your ability to deal with these past experiences will always assist you to hurdle any barrier put in your way.

There are many out there (and possibly on the forum) that have yet to endure a situation similar to many of yours. When it does happen and if it comes later in life they may be less prepared and may not be able to deal with it as you have done.

I felt extremely proud for you when reading this as you have shown more guts than anyone by sharing this................

It will happen for you Suz.I'm sure of that.

Luv 'n' stuff

Geo

My thoughts are with you Suzanne ,  you have a right to vent.  Good Luck.  Hopefully see you again in Reading.


Love Px

I would like to apologise for this post from the bottom of my heart.

I have noticed that about every 6 months I get a serious case of PMT (its my age) and I post these threads and sooooooooooooooooo regret them the next day.

What I say is true but its just my life and on a normal day im quite happy. I love my kids and to me they are just the same as any other kids.. It has been a verrrrrrrrrrry long 6 weeks school holiday and to be honest its been very hard and im at rock bottom.

Next week when school starts will be worse but I will cope because I have to.

Just wanted to say thank you for the kind posts and pms and hopefully I will be in a better state of mind soon

No need to apologise imo.

You write as you feel at the time. We all know its good to get things off your chest than bottle them up inside. (maybe if i had done the same thing 12 months ago i would still be living in the UK).

The forum is a place for people to talk about all subjects, its been a great place for me this past year.

You can have your moan and groan and know you are amongst friends, who not only will support you, but generally will understand how you are feeling at that time.

Take care and hope things pick up for you soon.