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Wrote this for a Sikhs mental health awareness group...

Let me know what you guys think..


What's this rage I feel inside, 
he called me a Paki I can’t let that slide.

He looked at me funny and made a sound,
maybe he wants me to put him in the ground.

Where does stop? Where do I draw the line?
I flee the scene I committed a crime. 

But something wrong somethings not clear
it’s the rage mixed with a 6 years olds fear, 

did he look at me funny or was he saying hello? 
I can’t tell anymore my I don’t want to know. 

Got a call it’s about my dad, 
he’s been stabbed and robbed but I didn’t feel sad. 

I feel a rage coming over me quick
I don’t know what to do it’s making me feel sick, 

I go into town and start a fight
I beat a man like it’ll make everything right. 

He begs and pleads but I don’t hear his cry’s 
my friends all stop me telling me he’ll die. 

There was no way out I didn’t know what to do 
I couldn’t continue I belonged in a zoo, 

I picked up a blade and put it to my wrist, 
20 years on the planet had brought me to this.

I thought of my parents my brother and my Nan, 
I wanted to do it I really can! 

Slit my wrists and the rage would be released,
it would be better if I was deceased.

But at that moment my phone started to ring, 
It was my younger cousin he said quick let me in. 

I put down the blade and opened the door, I was greeted by his smile excitement and his pride 
he asked me to follow him outside, 

he’d bought a new car which he was excited to show 
he said get in quick come on lets go . 

As we cruised around the neighbourhood looking for his future wife, 
I wanted to tell him he just saved my life. 

As I sit here now I realise it wasn’t rage
it was loneliness inside, as I watch my kids play without a care in the world I remember the fear that I felt at that age, 

the uncertainty the attacks and the rage. It took me a while realise, 
the rage I was feeling was loneliness inside. 

Mental health affects us all in different ways.. It’s okay not to be okay

First crack at poetry...

Also hello to you all.. Very long time ...

Good to see you back Mr Bangx2, 4 years is way too long. You OK?

Good thanks... Been meaning to say hello to you all... Great to see the community is still going strong

Think "going strong" might be over-egging it a shade, but a few of us are still here, hanging on grimly.

I do the od bit of poetry but...

My inkwell brims with verse unfit,
My speech tongue-tied; my page unwrit,
Yet though I be misunderstood,
Prefer I this to words of wood.

annh.

That’s much better then mine...

Sir Red of Dog, how I’ve missed thee

It wasn't mine Bangy, it was just one that stuck in my mind.

Remember when there used to be enough of us to form a clique?

haha, i remember those days fondly.

Hello again BangBang! Nice poem.

Hello mate...

Nicely written poem, mate.

Welcome back :)



:D

Gonna sound like Marky, but maybe a regularly contributed to host diary would help..........

Thanks pal...