1.st well done !!!!!
Down to 2 and I manage to piss away a 3:1 chip lead to finish second
Are you dissapointed that you had a chip lead and lost? I mean does it make it worse? (I know the feeling btw)
If this is a occurence that you keep finishing 3/2 but not first, surely you are good player but working on the final 3 handed game might improve your skills and you can become a consistant winner.
You have to look what it is that makes you not get the prize... is it the fact that you worked your ass off and now you become more relaxed and less concentrated, less patient? whatever it is you have to nail it and work on it.

GL and surely nxt time you will win it...