Everyone has one so why not..

[GreekStein]

Ray,

I hope you're ok mate. Shame to lose you from blonde if that's your decision.

I've shared a hotel with you a few times on poker trips to DTD and enjoyed both times. I think everyone on blonde sees i shoot from the hip - If I didn't want you to come to Thailand, I wouldn't have invited you, guarandamnteed.

I consider you a mate and I'm pretty sure Amatay feels the same. We even mentioned it would be good if you or Ant (or both) came out here and stayed for a few months.

That's 1000% serious and still stands. It might do you good mate.

Cos

[GreekStein]

Anyway, so that's me everything out there and nothing to hide, oh and Cos did exactly the same to me as the "Shrewdies". Invited me toThailand but didn't really want me there, I wonder what it's about me ? Maybe it's this sort of shit hahahahaha, well I'm never going to change so nevermind, but I decided I didn't want to go through it again, love you Cos, he really is one of the good ones. At the end of the day I don't think I'm a bad person, I've never fucked someone over who didn't fuck me over 1st and so far I can to my grave knowing that's true. I'd fukn love to meet someone I could say the same about.

tbh mate this is really grating on me. It looks bad on me and is completely WRONG and UNTRUE. I mentioned to you on more than one occasion that you should come to Thailand.

How have you decided that I didn't want you here and then decided to post it on blonde? Is it because I didn't put a Shearer poster up in the 3rd bedroom and book your plane ticket myself? I mean come on Ray pick yourself up bud!

Always online if you wanna chat. x

[Horneris]

Ray,

I respect your decision. Go out there and improve your life.

I enjoy talking to you on msn and striking the odd friendly bet with you (for obvious reasons  )

Re: The Vegas comments: I didn't even know you were going to Vegas till the day you came (maybe i didn't read on the forum that you were coming). The fact that we were all in a house and you were in a random hotel didn't help but from what I remember we did try to make you feel welcome.
I really enjoyed spending time with you in the daytime (expect when you 3b me v early on with AJo utg+1 to my utg open, lol). When you came over to our house a few times it was fun and that time Jones and Trigg were doing massive flop color props for thousands of dollars and you kept making hilarious comments was legendary.

On the flipside to this, when you got drunk and started getting in everyone's faces about flipping props for money you didn't even have on you at the time I was a little bit miffed ("flip me for $200, ill ship it you on blonde if i lose, no go on, no go on, why you being a ***** to me Brent/Trigg/whoever"). You nearly head-butted me at one point. After this is probably when we had a couple of nights out without inviting you.

Obv just the drink talking tho and I think your a really good guy.

GL in the future in all your endeavours!

[Amatay]

Alright Raymundo, you should go traveling bud. Just get yourself out there, its incred and would do you or most people the world of good imo. Plan a trip, get some money together and just do it!! Deffo stop by and spend some time with me and Cos too. Your more than welcome glgl x

[tikay]

Morning Ray, & thank you for the PM, I was very moved by it.

I'm really busy today - super super sick busy as one of our regulars might say - so I cannot reply properly right now.

But I do want to chat to you as to the comments you made about Cos, which I think were unfair. He & I have had our moments, God knows we have, but I think he's essentially a decent guy, & I'd bet my life that if he invited you, he meant it seriously. Trust me, he did. (I have not discussed this with him, btw).

I don't know what those Vegas comments were about, but you mentioned Jones, Trigg, Rich, BH. I'll need to explain my self better later, but the same applies. They are lads, they do the degen thing, get a little noisy & rowdy, get out of line sometimes, but honest to God, I don't think any of those 4 would have NOT wanted you there if they invited you. They are the sort of kids who if they did not want you there, would not have invited you. Really.

So I think it was a bit unfair on all of those, but I'm more concerned about you really, & we'll chat tomorrow. Honestly, I'm flat out working today until 1am tomorrow without a break, so it will have to wait I'm afraid.

But 90% of the world are NOT bad, as you feel right now, it just seems that way sometimes. About 1% of the word are bad, toxic, haters, but the trouble is they make a lotta noise.

You'll be all right, I promise. We'll discuss life balance (the virtual world is so addictive) & lifes positives. There are plenty.

Have a good day Ray, I'll be in touch tomorrow.

x

[mondatoo]

Anyway, so that's me everything out there and nothing to hide, oh and Cos did exactly the same to me as the "Shrewdies". Invited me toThailand but didn't really want me there, I wonder what it's about me ? Maybe it's this sort of shit hahahahaha, well I'm never going to change so nevermind, but I decided I didn't want to go through it again, love you Cos, he really is one of the good ones. At the end of the day I don't think I'm a bad person, I've never fucked someone over who didn't fuck me over 1st and so far I can to my grave knowing that's true. I'd fukn love to meet someone I could say the same about.

tbh mate this is really grating on me. It looks bad on me and is completely WRONG and UNTRUE. I mentioned to you on more than one occasion that you should come to Thailand.

How have you decided that I didn't want you here and then decided to post it on blonde? Is it because I didn't put a Shearer poster up in the 3rd bedroom and book your plane ticket myself? I mean come on Ray pick yourself up bud!

Always online if you wanna chat. x

I will read and respond to everyone's posts in a bit but noticed you had posted and just wanted to reply to this, I would obv not have posted it on blonde if I wasn't mortal and I wasn't trying to make you look bad at all. I apolgise for doing that and class you as one of the better mates I've made through poker and think you are genuine, I will spk to you on msn at some point about it but just to reiterate Cos has never fucked me over and I doubt he would. The very last part I said is also bullshit, there are a lot of people I could say haven't fucked me over but they are either very close family or not close friends.

I also just wanted to say that I am fine, I'm certainly not depressed ( thanks for the pm though bobalike) when you get pissed and your already unhappy with some stuff then that just makes it 10x worse. I also wanted to say that poker is contributing 0% towards my overall unhappyness.

I also don't want to leave blonde, just again, when I get pissed I look for different things to blame everything on, I do want to spend less time on here though because I spend far too much time on here but I love the place and have met a lot of good people here.

Lol at the drama, peace out.

[ChipRich]

Monda mate

You cant be serious? Doubt any of us ever wanted you to not be there and you coming out saying this bollox just makes us look really bad. Like others have said we wouldnt have invited you if we didnt want you to come along.

It obviously wasnt ideal with you being in a hotel and us being in the house, but you came over when you wanted and we met you for dinner etc. Maybe your forgetting that we were actually over there for the poker and not going out all the time. With us all playing poker that splits the group up a lot as it is and you just have to do what you can. As some people make days 2, go deep into day 1s etc so there wasnt always loads of us up for doing something. And with us having the house, people could just go back and chill there and you could have came anytime you wanted and we told you that but maybe you didnt want to intrude or w/e, but thats not our fault. The day/days you did come over was abs quality as BH mentioned, outside with BBQ, drinking, music and flipping etc.

I even waited for you in that taxi for like an hour, which ended up costing me the abso lot as i then got lost and didnt no where i was going and taxi driver had no idea!

I've always been a mate of you since we first met etc, Blonde Bashs, DTD etc so im pretty shocked you've posted this tbh.


It seems very weird that your just coming on here having a go at us and Cos for absolutely no reason even tho we did you a good thing.


Hope your ok mate

[nirvana]

I think it's just the way things are when people are fitting around groups of people who've been mates & known each other for a long time. You never feel quite 'part of it' but it is not the groups fault who are effortlessly natural in each others company.

I know what it's like cause I have the same when I go to Luton, they are all Luton chavs and I'm a bit superior and newer to the crowd even though it's been a few years I've been going there. Celtic, Sicilan & Chompy in particular have 2 main attributes (their faces) and always make me feel as welcome as a Tom Myland joke.

Drink more Mondo

[Dingdell]

I think it's just the way things are when people are fitting around groups of people who've been mates & known each other for a long time. You never feel quite 'part of it' but it is not the groups fault who are effortlessly natural in each others company.
I know what it's like cause I have the same when I go to Luton, they are all Luton chavs and I'm a bit superior and newer to the crowd even though it's been a few years I've been going there. Celtic, Sicilan & Chompy in particular have 2 main attributes (their faces) and always make me feel as welcome as a Tom Myland joke.
Drink more Mondo

Bigging yourself up there a bit Nivana - you are not that welcome ....   Joking obv.

Ray - I really don't know you that well but have always thought you hilariously funny and a nice guy - and I'm sorry you're feeling a bit off with the world. I don't post half as much as I used to on Blonde and life has continued just as well as it did before, in fact life has improved as I've left the comfort of the sofa and met the real world.

Blonde is a great place but nothing beats real life mates, meeting them in the flesh and having a laugh.

Is this just your way of asking for another Blonde Bash??  If so lets bring it on   

[Boba Fett]

Attacking Cos and the Shrewdies is the nut way of getting diary ratings.  Im expecting Vinny to do the same.

[mondatoo]

Although I agree I shouldn't have called people out etc and I responded to Cos because he genuinely didn't do anything to me and that wasn't fair but the rest of what I said I stand by and that's what I believe. As I said when I was pissed I think they are sound people but it is true that that's how it happened. I know for a fact that I never asked to make bets and that I'd ship the money online because that isn't fair, I honestly didn't read any of the posts that where made, and I actually felt bad about that because I appreciate people caring. But I seen Cos had posted and that was the only part of what I had said that I regretted but as I was scrolling down I noticed Brent had said about Vegas so I wanted to read what he said. Then I spent all day thinking, did I really do that, then I realised, in 2009 I didn't play poker properly and I never had money online on any site, but maybe I did say will u flip me and I'll pay you in the morning, which I agree could maybe be annoying, but that was the day when I knocked in 1k so I'd spent up for the day, I ended up nipping Jones, and the very next morning I paid him back.

I offered to pay for that taxi that Rich mentions because I'm not a piss taker, that's the same night BH is talking about when I was proper fukd. I wasn't trying to make anyone look bad, I can only say how I feel and I will stand by that. I honestly think that they are good people and I rooted hard for Jones in the million, and there's nobody I would wish would run good than Rich ( that's not meant as a rubdown), I guess I can't say this shit and expect them to not think I'm a ***** but I'm ok with that, but I really wanted him to win, they are good people but I can only speak as I find. My last night in Vegas I went to bed at 9pm, 9pm lol. They weren't responsible for me and maybe it is my own fault, I really wasn't trying to make people look bad, Vegas was a shit experience for me overall and that's how it is, and that was nothing to do with the fact I lost haha, I only menitoned it as a point of how people seem to struggle with me, they aren't bad people and I wasn't trying to say they where, if I was I wouldn't have said they are sound in the same sentance, obv.

[action man]

I definately know where monda is coming from RE vegas. We had booked our house and hear than monda is coming out, so we meet up have a few drinks, you come round to the house a few days and we chill out, but in truth anyone not in the house was an outsider.
The good thing about being in a house during wsop is that you can do your own thing, go out and play everyday or just chill back at the house with some sticky icky icky. If you had been in the house with us you would have felt much more welcome but we basically spent all of the time in one big group. We actually spent more time with you than with flushy (our staker at the time)

rofl, this is from the 2009 diary of the night in ceasers where monda was wrecked.

the next flip was for beer and monda lost
the next flip was for beer and a jager bomb, BH lost, (see how we upped the ante)
meanwhile we devise a prop bet. There were 3 fit birds on a table about 20 yards away and we dug deep for $20 a man ($220) for monda to complete the following
approach women, sit down with full beer, drink full beer without saying a word, and returning.
He failed at the first hurdle afte talking to the girls, offering them $30 each to sit with him, and chirping away to his hearts content.
He was com, but obv the bet failed. He came back chufed with himself expecting to be paid. He sure recieved his wish.
Mond seemed to think i masterminded the refund of the money which was untrue, and he seemed to form a personal vendetta with me,
the above vendetta lead to ray tryin to strike a drinking contest with me for abounts which increased form $100 to $500---> $1k, to rollz.
the irony of the story being by the end of the night ray being too pissed to stand up.
Then the unthinkable happened. Mondatoo lost the next flip for beer and jaeagermeister (gg $220ish) it was so com, we had decided to play craps after these drinks, but monda and others were so keen on another flip to regain some equity that they were downing beers and flippping with reckless abandon. We sure did flip again,

[mondatoo]

I definately know where monda is coming from RE vegas. We had booked our house and hear than monda is coming out, so we meet up have a few drinks, you come round to the house a few days and we chill out, but in truth anyone not in the house was an outsider.
The good thing about being in a house during wsop is that you can do your own thing, go out and play everyday or just chill back at the house with some sticky icky icky. If you had been in the house with us you would have felt much more welcome but we basically spent all of the time in one big group. We actually spent more time with you than with flushy (our staker at the time)

rofl, this is from the 2009 diary of the night in ceasers where monda was wrecked.

the next flip was for beer and monda lost
the next flip was for beer and a jager bomb, BH lost, (see how we upped the ante)
meanwhile we devise a prop bet. There were 3 fit birds on a table about 20 yards away and we dug deep for $20 a man ($220) for monda to complete the following
approach women, sit down with full beer, drink full beer without saying a word, and returning.
He failed at the first hurdle afte talking to the girls, offering them $30 each to sit with him, and chirping away to his hearts content.
He was com, but obv the bet failed. He came back chufed with himself expecting to be paid. He sure recieved his wish.
Mond seemed to think i masterminded the refund of the money which was untrue, and he seemed to form a personal vendetta with me,
the above vendetta lead to ray tryin to strike a drinking contest with me for abounts which increased form $100 to $500---> $1k, to rollz.
the irony of the story being by the end of the night ray being too pissed to stand up.
Then the unthinkable happened. Mondatoo lost the next flip for beer and jaeagermeister (gg $220ish) it was so com, we had decided to play craps after these drinks, but monda and others were so keen on another flip to regain some equity that they were downing beers and flippping with reckless abandon. We sure did flip again,

Originally the plan was that I would stay in the house but that didn't end up working out. Don't get me wrong I had some com times with all of you including that day, the day we had the bbq was incred, I think that was mid way through the trip and I remember thinking, mint it's going to be a good trip afterall, I don't think I actually seen any of you again after that. The Vegas trip wasn't great for me but it's not something I care about anymore, I only knew you/Jones/Rich from a few DTD events really so I probably just expected to much, as I always do. As I said when I was pissed, no hard feelings.

[mondatoo]

First Pleno says he is going and now you bud.
I dont think you should stop posting, yeah have a break for a bit if you want but i reckon its a culmination of many things making you feel like this.

Hope you dont disappear as you probably have more friends than you think!!!

Blonde isn't a problem that I have and neither or any of the people that are a part of it.

I have made a lot of friends on here, the MC update thread is something I'll never forget, that probably meant more than the money did, then again I knew it wouldn't take me long to burn the money

[mondatoo]

Stay on skype Ray - if you ever want a chat, just call.  Do what you thinks best...and if you need some help, get it.  Only thing I would say, is what we all choose to do can be a lonely life - I've been ta it 6 months, and tbh the one thing that worries me is the isolaation at times, I've noticed it more since splitting with Sian a week ago and its on my mind alot. 

Thing is mate - you need non virtual relationships, I think the majority of people on here are sound - however until you cement proper relationships away from t'internet they're not real.  Not going to preach, but my adice would be focus on some real life stuff away from the PC, the poker and the drink and you'll be just fine - you're one of the good guys

The isolation of poker was one of the main reasons I kept the job on part time just so I didn't get stuck in grinding all the time, lol at that ever happening.

I definitely don't think I need any help, its just been a culmination of loads of little things and some bigger things all going wrong that if they'd been isolated incidents I wouldn't have been bothered but because it all just came at once it's got me down a little bit, life seems to go like that though imo.