Whilst 0800 may seem a little harsh with his 'mug punter' comment I can't help but think you still have a gambling problem Rich.
Just because it's not as bad as the 'rock bottom' problem you used to have doesn't mean you have it under control.
I would think most people on Blonde have a gambling problem to a certain degree. I know I have that's for sure. Fortunately for me I'm single with no dependents so if it goes tits up the only person who gets hurt is me.
You have a good job and a wonderful family. I don't understand risking it all for a chance of a few extra quid. You say that your bets were mostly flips. That suggests that the potential upside of this was a £28k profit. Would being £28k up have made as big a difference in a positive way as being £28k down has done in a negative way?
Dubai's spot on that life >>> money of course. This is so much easier to say when you have a few quid behind you. When it's all gone I'm pretty sure that despite being alive your whole situation changes dramatically.
Good luck sorting all this out mate. Sounds like you have a very understanding wife but I'm sure there's limits to that understanding.
Cheers
Matt
Sorry Matt I had not come back to this or 0800's posts from before which were quite good posts and I agree with Adam (Rffffffffs) that sometimes 0800 does come across abit trollish but I never took it that way and yes you are most likely right in that ofc I deep down have a gambling problem of sorts and it will always rear it's ugly head if I have time, ability to have access to massive sums of money or if other areas of life are not great etc etc as it's my leak I suppose as I dont drink that much and have never been a smoker and deep down I love a punt and for the first time in 6-7 years I slipped back to some old habits.
The winning or losing is not the most important thing in that as betting,poker etc are hobbies that for the past 7 years when under control I either lose small, win small or break even at whilst having a great deal of fun and bear no part of income or investments then I am quite lucky but I realised I was starting to spiral a bit on the punting front and took the back steps to ensure I didnt get to a point where I was before.
I never wanted it to come across as it's only 28k as obv it is a lot of money irl but in the scheme of things does not change our life in anyway shape or form and just means I have to tighten my own disposable purse strings for a few months and punt very occasionally and for very small stakes as it is very unlikely I could ever commit to not having a bet again, not because I need to bet but sometimes you just have a punt.
Problem gambling is very broad and not sure if I mentioned this when I started this diary but when I was first in trouble and I mean in trouble just to family at the time but without an income that would mean I could payback any money owed for a very long time my Dad frogmarched me to Gamblers Anonymous with my fiancee and they sat in the relatives room being told how to control me and that even the lottery is a form of gambling and I should never even buy a raffle ticket again and at the time I sat in my room with people telling their story and how for xxx days they had not had a bet and as I didnt believe I rebelled and basically tried to beat the system so syphoned money away where I could and become ultra ultra selective and actually turned %wise the biggest profit I had from bowl stakes due to it being important that was until Sarah found £750 turned from the odd 50p in my golf bag and it was GG but even my Dad found the whole thing very Cultish and never worked for us as a family. *sure it works for some
I remember at the time answering all the questions which showed you were a problem gambler and answered correctly (not that this was a good thing) to all of them and would be 100% sure that today I would not tick half the boxes but its the access and ability that leads me to distraction!
I suppose I need to get some enjoyment back from occasional punting on the rare occasion I will now punt and since I first posted I have had 3 bets
I backed G Delaet to be in the top 10 in last weeks US golf @ 15/2 £50 loser
I backed Horseys bookings tip the other day at 13/8 for £20 and then spun the winnings onto
The Bayern/Barca double last night at just over 2/1 (see I run good
so its a good job we have a dog and not a cat!
And now most likely wont punt until I see something I like or a respected poster puts up as value somewhere else which is so many miles away from where I was many years ago.