i must be just running bad then, ive been pushing with pritty much any two all week (in similar situations), and been breaking even. i wondered whether i was making a bad play, despite calculators telling me to push.
If you are playing the higher stakes sng's on FTP, even if you are pretty good (this post originally makes me think otherwise as it is quite a standard push) you are going to experience massive varience. Be grateful to be break even, as you are doing better than most.
Sorry if this sounds harsh but its the truth.