If I'm playing well I feel in control, if it's not so good I hang on to the table for dear life - at any time i could get thrown off.
Playing at Luton I feel safe whatever happens, at Southend i feel unsafe constantly due to the loose play. At the sportsman I feel a little in awe and at the Vic I feel like it's fun, especially if you go with the right people.
Rarely do i feel its life or death - which i would like to make my play more focused - but on the other hand I don't want to be so absorbed as to be suicidal if I loose.
I play more tournament but enjoy cash more - i think it's the quick results.
It really just depends