It was very obvious to me at the weekend that my mind just wasn't on the game in hand at Luton.
Lots of things happened before the game that although very little seemed to affect me, and although I didn't really think I was a superstitious player they all seemed very important at the time.
On the way to the second day I realised I had left my earrings at home, I had bought them in Brighton last week, came second and therefore after one game/one cash they had become my very precious lucky earrings. (complete madness). I had to turn round and pick them up, making me nearly miss the start of the game.
Previously when I have done well I have read a chapter of Harrington before the game just to start focusing, I didn't have time to do that so I felt I wasn't well prepared.
I always put some money in a slot machine, and if I make money I feel it's an omen about the game. At Brighton I got paid £293 before the start of the second day, at Luton I spent £20.
As for Tighty - don't get me started.........unable to rail me as he was playing in the Blonde Sizzler obviously completely tilted me and that was goodnight for me.
All of this is ridiculous as none of those things should affect the cards and the game but the state of mind I had before the game was affected by some of these issues. This can translate at the table to looking weak etc etc. Lets face it, the times I've done well I have been feeling pretty confident having been buoyed up by Blonde/Red etc. I tried to replicate those feeling of confidence myself on Sunday but it just wasn't happening.
If I could feel confident and on top of my game all the time without having to ask for encouraging posts and looking really needy all the time all the better!
So I have taken it upon myself to get professional help ( Long overdue in some peoples minds

- I want to overcome these mental barriers - so like Tiger Woods and others I am getting a performance coach.
Albeit my game isn't great, to me the mindset is important and while I work on understanding some of the more important points of the game, such as does a flush beat a full house, my mental approach on the day will help towards the whole package. In Brunsons supersystem he says if you can't leave your troubles at home don't play, I don't really have any troubles at home (bok) but I allow other things to interfere.
I'm telling you this because I think that acknowledging possible weaknesses and taking public steps towards improvement gets you half way there. A bit like Tikays stop smoking campaign I have an added incentive to improve.
So - I am having one session of coaching which may involve visualisation/hypnotism etc. The guy has promised that if I find pocket aces he won't make me cluck like a chicken - I hope he's right. I thought it was worth one go and take it from there.
Thank you for listening, may the force be with me
