Ok i've heard that admitting the problem is a good way towards solving it, i actually don't believe i have one but maybe that is part of the initial problem?
Right this started badly because i sort of confused myself, i didn't think i actually had a problem until i said that i might have, this makes no sense to me yet oddly seems legible?
{deep breath}
I've been toying with an idea for a few weeks, i've actually just realised it's been weeks. i made the decision a couple of days ago and though i really have no proper reasoning behind it, i think it's "about time".
OK you are this far down the page and still you don't know what's going on so i'll lay the challenge? more an aim, a goal if you will.
I have set myself the (challenge seems wrong but i'll stick with it) challenge of no alcohol in October at all.
My typical week is Tuesdays and Thursdays i play darts for a local pub, Fridays , Saturdays and Sundays i go to the pub.
I am drunk on all those occasions, i see little point in drinking if i'm not getting pissed at the end of the night.
Why have a couple? it makes no sense to me.
I live alone, have done for 5 years, i LOVE my life but i think it's wrong, a lingering guilt i think.
So here it is in black and white, for all to see (there is reasoning behind the public factor), i'm not drinking for the whole of October.
I have said to people in the past that the reason i gave up live poker was because i was making money online, this is true but not the actual reason, the real reason is that i like a drink or three whilst playing and at the time i had several mates that would drive me to the casiino and take me home, i could drink what i like.
One by one they stopped going and i wouldn't go because i like to drink when i play live.
As i read this back i see a different person to the one i thought i was, how odd.
Anyway this is starting to resemble a mantis or totalise post in
so i'll make the decision to bore you no more.
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