wow. epic, this rings espcially true for me due to similar experience.
Thing ive learnt is in Poker you have to believe that everything will work, that the big moment that makes the comeback possible will happen sooner rather than later, and you'll always get through these horrible situations if you just believe in yourself and keep going.
If you dont have that then no matter how good you are, you may aswel close pokerstars down, and head to see if the local co-op needs anyone on the checkout, cos we're gamblers at the end of the day.
Seems like you have the belief and the drive so id put my money (wats left

) behind you
Best of Luck x