Cheers everyone for the kind words. It is starting to sink in now and the thought of being more comfortable in the higher games gives a great sense of ease, however I know how an older me would have reacted to this spot in jumping in at games i am not 100% ready to play, so i am going to take my time in going gung ho.
How can you not enjoy that? Winning a comp is literally the nut best feeling you can have in your poker career, if you don't fkn love it, then I don't understand what drives you to carry on.
I guess it is because i know that i am a fraud at the moment. I am not the best tourney poker player that i can be and i don't think i deserve to be winning this amount of money. Need to get to the point i can sit back and know i have prepared for a grind as optimally as possible. Not done that yet, but shouldn't be long now. Pretty gambly tendency by me to continue playing despite not being 100% prepared, but that is mainly because at 75% which i may be at now i am still a winning player so my impatience is getting the better of me. I think this bink is a good a time as any to not come back to poker until my own niggling doubts are put to rest and I can play at full ease.
As well i would like to add, I don't put much emotion at all into poker. I play methodically and calmly and concentrate only on how well i am playing rather than the emotions i am drawing from it. I see myself getting at my most emotive when i get very lucky in an all in showdown, because i am distraught, often, that i have got it in bad, but feel a massive relief that i was given second chance. I don't feel too much content at outplaying someone, rather instead the want to further outplay them so i don't waste the opportunity of more chips.
With big wins and $26k is that, I just see myself thinking, OK, that is a nice result Ant, but I am not where i want to be yet financially so there is no need to draw any happiness from this, just push on and be happy when maybe I win enough to not have to worry about getting a job in the near future, maybe have a flat bought, and money aside to further grind. That is the motivation and on that goal i am nowhere near being settled, so really this win bears nothing into comparison of how happy i could be if i get into a spot where i am set for life or the mid term future with the amount of money won. So with that constantly in my mind, to be frank, I am never elated about anything, I just want to carry on winning and doing my best in the short term so I can have a long term feeling of ease.
Wp mate! You seemed to peel a bit from the bb and you 3x'd @ one point. What hands did you peel and what did you 3x, and was it on purpose? Brutal last hand but wp on knocking them about 3-4 handed on the deal
Unorthodox plays, granted, but they bear results when deployed correctly i find.
wow sicko great job mate. Massssivvvvvvvvvve!!!
Congratulate me all you want but I am not resting until I am leading the BR challenge, ha. You beast. But tyty for what its worth