The bit about PeeJay is a bit tounge in cheek but he does not posses that table aura that some of the younger players have. When sat opposite Tommy Bingham, Liam Batty, Tom Langley, Tom Kuggelstadt, etc they have an air of confidence that PeeJay does not have. PeeJay looks to be caught in the headlights but is undoubtedly got the ability.
Hi Jason,
Im only on page 17 after starting from page 1 and fascinated by this whole thread and thought I would take a breather and post now, and rejoin the thread where I left it tomorrow as its so much info to digest.
I was quite humbled to be put in your little bracket of "air of confidence live young players" along with good players such as Tommy Bingham and Tom Kugg.
I definatly DONT think Peejay lacks confidence, after his win in the GP, he seemed to have gained alot and I saw him making alot more moves and getting extra creative, and his "rabbit in headlights look" when he plays is just part of his whole aura at the table, much like Tom Dwan looks hypnotised sometimes.
I dont think I can add anything more to the thread than what people have said already, but just coming from somebody who feels your pain, in live tournamernts and the fustration you must feel. I think like alot of people are suggesting, you need to do some hard work and study and learn the game. Maybe the game has passed you by just recently. I have been playing 9 years now, started off online in rediculous 1000NL and 2000NL games on 888.com and I thought I was unbeatable, generally crushing for weeks on end, but looking back the players I was playing against were so terrible it gave me a false sense of winning, when in reality it was setting me up to fail when I crossed over to the other side of the varience line where I was playing bad and running bad, and lost some rediculous amounts.
Studied really hard at the game like 5 years ago and its paid for alot of things in my life and alot of things for my future, just clicking buttons, its mad to think about it in real life terms. My friends think its crazy. After the whole FTP fiasco, I was pretty much crushed online as stupidly all my funds were in there to play poker with as I had just put a large deposit down on a house and a new car with my bankroll from stars. So feeling pretty bitter about online poker, I stopped playing live "for fun" during mid week, and started playing the weekend festival tournaments but in order to do this without using all my real life income I started geting staking and had a few nice results then got backed fully, however 2012 has been pretty terrible year for me in live poker. Like you getting down to the last few tables of the UKIPT Nottingham the only real highlight, yet ultimatly a huge disappiontment. All the day 2's I couldn't convert into anthing.
Even losing my cool during one £500 deepstack when I was stationed down by top pair when I was running a tournament life bluff, and on the drive home I felt embarrssed by my actions, although not really aggressive or seriously out of line, I just must have come across when I left the table muttering under my breath about how I thought his call was less than optimal as a sore loser.
It was a wake up call and I started to study hard at the game, getting coaching and playing online again and it felt good to have that winning feeling back, its a good way to build your confidence back up, I was only playing 10,20,30,50 euro buyin MTT's but it was fun again.
I was still playing live but I was getting fustrated and annoyed at myself not winning anything because I was letting my backer down who had been so good to me and I felt like I didnt deserve his confidence in me anymore. We have ended our arrangement now, and Ive took a month away from live poker to get coaching online, learn and watch. I feel refreshed, and ready to go. I played last weeks £150 and played alot better than I have this year coming close to the money losing a flip with 77 v KQ and then next hand losing with KK v Q7, but as I took a sick beat I didnt feel fustrated, I didnt feel low on confidence, I didnt feel dejected, because I know I made the right discision in every hand I played that day, and yes I lost but if I keep playing good, I should win eventually. I'll be playing tomorrow and the GPS and the dtd500 for myself but then I may take a backseat and put large volumes in online once my FTP money has been credited to my bank account, and start staking a few friends of mine who I know are good but just need a little help playing bigger comps. I dont know, i'll see.
Sorry to go on a long winded post about myself, I just tried to get you to understand your not alone in feeling like this Jason. I do think you need to take a complete break away from Poker, go on holiday with the family, find something else to do for awhile and when you feel the hunger coming back, then do some homework!!! and come back a better player. It seems like your just playing poker for the sake of playing, you need to get that fire back and be that Jason Herbert who when I was at the table with I used to fear, now, and I dont mean to sound disrespectful in anyway or anything, but I dont give you a second thought if you were on my starting table or I joined your table. You just seem to go through the motions and your too nice a character to be feared, I know your a very talented player, Ive seen it myself, but the game changes so much, you need to keep improving and I dont think you are.
Im routing for you to come back a better player than what you once were, and being a better player, and confident, you will start winning again.
Liam BatEy, not Batty haha
P.S. sorry for the poor grammar and spelling if any, typed all on my iphone like a complete boss!!