Stepping into the future - One man's journey

[paulhouk03]

I had my biggest binks when I said I'm gonna quit lol

[millidonk]

I had my biggest binks when I said I'm gonna quit lol

Just say you are going to quit every Sunday.. I wish this worked for me with the amount of times I have given up poker..

[paulhouk03]

I had my biggest binks when I said I'm gonna quit lol

Just say you are going to quit every Sunday.. I wish this worked for me with the amount of times I have given up poker..

Playing online bores me to death

[FUN4FRASER]

The reason I was blackballed was down to a Warrant Officer declaring as long as he was serving in the Royal Air Force, I would never get promoted. This declaration was a direct result of all the hassle I had caused him due to a couple of minor incidents I was involved in. Including things such as:

Insubordination / Resisting arrest
Misuse of a fire extinguisher / endangering human life
Drinking whilst on ROPs (Restriction of privileges)
Missing parade (Although they inititally they tried doing me with AWOL as I missed a parade on a Friday due to being too drunk to turn up then wasn't seen again til the Monday. Apparently this constitutes AWOL in the army but I got away with missing parade)
They suggested that they might do me with fraternisation (sleeping with a trainee) and I suggested I might seek advice from a human rights solicitor.. NFA taken, I subsequently married that trainee.


Loads more little things that I will jot down when I fully remember and I imagine loads that I was too drunk to ever be able to remember. Despite all this I was still very good at my job, if not thee best, certainly one of. Unfortunately this isn't enough to get promoted these days in the RAF, you also have to do secondary duties which ate into drinking time so I point blank refused.

Also some quite comedy situations I got myself into that wouldn't be out of place in a Mr Bean sketch.

Hi Dave/Guys

Really Love this thread and in particular the rap sheet above    ....   It seems you were quite a rebel  

Ive got so much respect for all you armed forces guys and think you get such a bum rap from certain quarters ,  especially when you constantly put your lives on the line and sustain injuries such as lost limbs etc

There seems to be a common theme running through this thread with you, Lee , Mark and Craig etc you are all seemingly humbled by your time in the service which has no doubt made you really value things today

You all deserve some life ( and poker ) run good for your efforts  

[millidonk]

Cheers Fraser. You are always spreading the love which is nice to see.

TBH from about 13-16 I was a massive prick and at 18 when I joined the RAF I was probs just a mediocre prick.

I was always quite intelligent but was just into all sorts. I can't even blame it on 'being in with the wrong crowd' as I instigated most of it.. I had 2 real turning points, the first was when I was 16 and my mum kicked me out. I roughed it for one night then went to live with my nan in London (from York). This made me wake up a little but I was still going out drinking 5 nights a week and getting into loads of fights. Once I joined the RAF I still had the 'cheeky chappy' mentality but the old adage of they break you down to build you up again is true, it just took them a bit longer with me.. Basic training was 9 weeks I think, normally everyone has been straightened out by the end of that time, it took them about 3yrs to sort me out.. Glad they did though.

My time in the forces was centred around Iraq and Afghanistan and it wasn't too long before I found out that someone I had joined up with had been killed. I was fortunate to never actually witness anything first hand, although I did actually volunteer to go to Iraq but my deployment fell through at the last minute. Stuff like that does have away of making you become humble pretty quickly.

When I was out in the states it was great, I got discounts absolutely everywhere, people stopped and applauded you and you never had to buy a drink! In the UK it's not quite the same.. Once I was in a bar in Kingston and I showed the bouncer my ID, he said "are you going in there later" (pointing across the road at Oceanas) I said "yes", he warned me "don't show your ID as they will kick fuck out of you".. I also got spat at in Bedford which was fun. The times I was on Novembrance parade and got to chill with the veterans or someone said "thanks for everything you are doing" massively outweighed such instances.

I was also in a pub in Norbury once when an Irish guy told me what he thought of me being "in his pub", unfortunately for him that was in my first 3 years and I hadn't quite been straightened out by that point..

[BorntoBubble]

Where on the prick scale would you put yourself at now Milli?

Even since going to America i have endeavored to show people in the armed forces a lot more respect. Saying thanks when i see someone in uniform etc, firstly for the completely selfish reason that i would not have the balls to go out there and fight and im glad someone else has to go and do it on my behalf and secondly because i think it is a very important job for queen and country and i like a bit of patriotism like that. In America they are on a whole other level with the respect thing the armed forces are treated 100% as hero's where in this country that is not so much the case and there is a lot of hate around.

So... Thanks to you and the others itt that have served for queen and country. Have a friend coming back from Afghan next week and its reminded me to get the crate of beer on order for him!

[millidonk]

haha, on the prichter scale I am probs 2/10 now, 18yrs old 6/10, 16yrs old 9.5/10.

I am not actually a massive fan of the queen herself, not watched her speech although I did choose to pledge allegiance to her when I enlisted, so if I was that bothered I wouldn't have joined up.

Once, I was leaning back on my chair and some sgt said "what are you doing? that's the queen's chair!", stuff like that used to tilt me. I had a mate who was a proper lad but if you went in his room it had commemorative plates of the queen on the wall and a little queen figurine on his tv. Used to make me lol.

Thanks for your appreciation tho mate and hope your mate gets back safe and you treat him to a drink and a lapdance (not you personally ldo). I would also like to give thanks to you for your services to poker and DBBH.

[mondatoo]

with your redundancy how did you tackle the pay jumps in the dtd comp?

what was your mindset like?

do you believe in destiny?

I actually didn't look at the payouts, Simon Trumper asked me if I wanted to know the payouts with 5 left but I declined. Obv I had a rough idea as I knew first place was £50k but my mindset was just to give myself a chance of winning it. I had no intention of blinding down in an attempt to just ladder a couple of spots. I still don't really regret my 5b jam with a7.. (Even tho I maybe should) he folds and we are even in chips, I bink another heart or an ace and I have £50k in the backburner. I was worried if I let my redundancy weigh on my mind then I might make poor decisions or if anyone was aware of the fact then they would try and exploit me.

Actually do believe in fate but still not sure what mine is, if I'm in Vegas in June next year then I might have a better idea.

Looking forward to getting on the zoom train and posting some shakira graphs.

Wow,that's pretty interesting!  I'm not sure if I believe in fate but I think in poker the good guys generally get the run of,the green when they need it the most. Even with blonde a lot of people have had scores when they've really needed it. NLT sure what this is put down to or called but it seems to happen all the time.

What's a shakira graph?

Guess I must be a twat then

[millidonk]

obv don't need it enough.

Didn't the MC bink come at a good time for you if I recall correctly?

[mondatoo]

obv don't need it enough.

Didn't the MC bink come at a good time for you if I recall correctly?

Well I'm always teetering on the edge tbf, so probably.

It obviously has nothing to do with the fact that your under it that means you run good to win, just a ton of other factors involved, none of which are fate.

[millidonk]

Don't be so quick to disregard fate mate. You never know.. I remember talking about this I with you n Red's diary. I'm kind of on the fence,  I like to do things for good karma but don't essentially believe in any one idea / philosophy or religion.

[mondatoo]

I find the whole Karma/Fate idea to be this desperate hope that there's something afterwards, not that I'm saying there isn't, just think that's a load of bollocks. Like most thing with this subject people just choose to ignore they constant examples of, Karma especially, being total bs which is kinda tilting. That said I'm not ignorant enough to not think I could be wrong, there's always a chance, there's a chance you might win the Euro Millions when it's 92049589 Million as well.

There are a ton of more logical reasons though why you would win when "you need it". Just like there's a ton of people who need it desperately and it doesn't happen and they toddle of thinking they were terrible at poker and go do something else.

[millidonk]

I get where you are coming from but I don't think Karma is related to life after death or lack of, I think when you die, you die. That's it. Obv I would like there to be something more but I just can't see it.. That doesn't stop me thinking the idea of Karma is great though, do bad shit, bad shit will happen. As I did bad stuff as a youth I almost try and make up for it by being extra nice whenever I can now. Being nice and trying to do good things can't be bad for anyone really.

Fate is a bit different, as it would imply some people are destined to have a bad life and some people are destined to have a good one. This could be true but I like to think that everyone is destined for good things at some point. Who knows for sure? Nobody really, but I think if you live by the belief that life on the whole is utter shit and you have to make a concerted effort to get any enjoyment out of it and you make this concerted effort then everything will be A ok.

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[FUN4FRASER]

Cheers Fraser. You are always spreading the love which is nice to see.

TBH from about 13-16 I was a massive prick and at 18 when I joined the RAF I was probs just a mediocre prick.

I was always quite intelligent but was just into all sorts. I can't even blame it on 'being in with the wrong crowd' as I instigated most of it.. I had 2 real turning points, the first was when I was 16 and my mum kicked me out. I roughed it for one night then went to live with my nan in London (from York). This made me wake up a little but I was still going out drinking 5 nights a week and getting into loads of fights. Once I joined the RAF I still had the 'cheeky chappy' mentality but the old adage of they break you down to build you up again is true, it just took them a bit longer with me.. Basic training was 9 weeks I think, normally everyone has been straightened out by the end of that time, it took them about 3yrs to sort me out.. Glad they did though.

My time in the forces was centred around Iraq and Afghanistan and it wasn't too long before I found out that someone I had joined up with had been killed. I was fortunate to never actually witness anything first hand, although I did actually volunteer to go to Iraq but my deployment fell through at the last minute. Stuff like that does have away of making you become humble pretty quickly.

When I was out in the states it was great, I got discounts absolutely everywhere, people stopped and applauded you and you never had to buy a drink! In the UK it's not quite the same.. Once I was in a bar in Kingston and I showed the bouncer my ID, he said "are you going in there later" (pointing across the road at Oceanas) I said "yes", he warned me "don't show your ID as they will kick fuck out of you".. I also got spat at in Bedford which was fun. The times I was on Novembrance parade and got to chill with the veterans or someone said "thanks for everything you are doing" massively outweighed such instances.

I was also in a pub in Norbury once when an Irish guy told me what he thought of me being "in his pub", unfortunately for him that was in my first 3 years and I hadn't quite been straightened out by that point..

Great Stuff and what an interesting life though its a shame you get people being aggressive and rude towards you .

It must feel strange to have a colleague die in action...serious reality check and no doubt an emotional roller coaster

[FUN4FRASER]

I find the whole Karma/Fate idea to be this desperate hope that there's something afterwards, not that I'm saying there isn't, just think that's a load of bollocks. Like most thing with this subject people just choose to ignore they constant examples of, Karma especially, being total bs which is kinda tilting. That said I'm not ignorant enough to not think I could be wrong, there's always a chance, there's a chance you might win the Euro Millions when it's 92049589 Million as well.

There are a ton of more logical reasons though why you would win when "you need it". Just like there's a ton of people who need it desperately and it doesn't happen and they toddle of thinking they were terrible at poker and go do something else.

Interesting post and quite understandable viewpoints Ray.

I'm a great believer in trying to do right by people , "what goes round come around" , "you reap what you sow "etc etc and although circumstances can sometimes make these attempts difficult I do feel you get both short and long term rewards . This could be anything ...like just feeling good about yourself because somebody appreciates your efforts  this in turn can put your mind in a good place and positive things start to happen.

Words like Kismet ,Serendipity , Fate  etc are difficult to qualify , for example is somebody fated to win the lottery ? Well they wont win it unless they a buy a ticket so therefore they have created their own fate ?

I'm not religious but certainly spiritual and interested in a multitude of  things like meditation , yin and yang , how the the human mind works etc etc.

I use the word "Karma" quite often as an all encompassing expression but whether it actually exists is obviously debatable ! What I do know is that getting my mind , body and soul in order has a positive affect on both myself and others and stands me in good stead for life and has definitely helped with poker.

I don't think it hurts to keep an open mind...who knows ?  you may be glad you did