A big thankyou

[redimp]

It was my cousins funeral today.

It was as you would expect the worst proper bad time ever,it was more difficult for me than most as the service was held in my home village church.

The last time i was at my home village church  was 9 years ago when i was there to bury Sam my 3 week old baby.

I went to see him before the funeral and asked to look after Lee which is ironic cos Sam would only be 9 and Lee is  was 32 but Sam has been in heaven longer so am planning on he is old enough to show him the ropes

I never thought i could cry as much as i have today, i cryed so much had a headache from it.

I have gone through so many emotions today from feeling guilty, I have not seen him for a while, to if i I forget in a few weeks time, how sad I am how bad will i feel then.

And to the thankyou, i don't have many of  you on msn...

I do have Suzanne tho and omg did i need her tonight i just wanted someone to talik to that was not family. not a i feel sorry for you chat, just a jeez it was proper tough today and a shoulder to lean on chat

And omg wow, she said the right thing at the right time and made me come back to earth again.

So although this post is a massive thankyou to suzz, it is too to all blondes what a great family we all have on here..

Thankyou all
shelly xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

P.s if any kind mods can do my spelling mistakes cos i bet theres loads that would be cool

[Poppet7]

I never know what to say Shelly, so I'll just say that I'm here for a chat if you ever need it. Sorry I can't be of more help. x

[Colchester Kev]

spelling mistakes are not important in a post written from the heart.

I'm sure everyone here is humbled to think that we, in any way helped you through an emotionally traumatic time.



Kev

xxx

[redimp]

Thankyou Kev

2 mins after I posted pops msn me, for one so young  she has got a good head on her shoulders,I wish I had been  that wise at her age!!!!!!!!

[charmaine]

Its heartbreaking to read your post Shelly , ive sat here not knowing what to say .
My thoughts are with you .

Charmaine xx

[Sark79]

thoughts are with you as well shelly

[tikay]

Charmaine puts my thoughts into words exactly.

Take care Shelly, you know where we are if you get a bit down.

xx

[madasahatstand]

shelly
the best i can say is to try to focus on the positive thoughts youve got of your baby and your cousin. going down the road constantly feeling guilty is painful and cuts you up. im not saying dont go down that road at all because you will, but just try not to go there all the time.
try to keep busy even if its posting here or playing poker. distraction helps a lot.

all my thoughts are wiith you and if i could, id share some of your burdon. take it easy and dont beat yourself up

mad xx

[allym]

I'm useless at this kinda stuff, but glad to help and also to be a part of blonde! Thoughts are with you!


PS: you can add (e-mail addy deleted by tikay) if you like! Same goes for everyone!

PPS: Always look on the brightside!!!

[tikay]

allyn, it was lovely that you gave Shelly your e-mail addy, but it's a bad thing to Post your e-addy on an Open Forum. I will PM it to Shelly (Red Imp) for you, then delete the addy from the Post. Hope you don't mind.

[tikay]

Done.

[turny]

my thoughts are with you shelly take care x

[allym]

No bother Tikayl! Didn't realise! Sorry!

[tikay]

No bother Tikayl! Didn't realise! Sorry!

No probs allyn, just don't want you being plagued with Spammers. They lurk on blonde, you know!

[edy g]

MY THOUGHTS ARE WITH YOU RIGHT NOW....XX