These posts seem to come round every month,or is it my immagination?
Its a woman thing I KNOW IT...and although I KNOW its coming I just cant stop myself from playing.
My intentions are to play small stake and have an early night but when my butt is whooped on a $1 stt its a no win situation. Im annoyed to have been beaten at that level so move up a bit...then up a bit more. Till I finally blow!!
Yesterday and tonight I havent played at all, I didnt look on the forum yesterday and although im sure most of you will say "so what" to me that has been hard.
I admit I am totally obsessed with poker...I lack that natural talent but my craving to improve my game has taken over my whole life.
In one way it has improved the way I think as I am no longer tolerant of bullies (always been a doormat)...now I am 1 step ahead ;-)
I admit I am totally obsessed with the game and it HAS to stop.
I really wanted to play in Kevs game tonight but I didnt (nice comeback btw with 88...luck box xx)
Oh Suz, Suz, Suz!!!
A couple of comments to make, firstly I agree with Silo in that you should consider the fun aspect of what your last deposit money has given you. It seems your last deposit has lasted several months and you should compare this with other possible forms of entertainment. Imagine you went and played a weekly night of bingo costing, say £15 a time. Would you give it up after a couple of weeks because you hadn't won? If you were having fun and considered it good entertainment for your money then you wouldn't think twice about carrying on and your poker should be the same.
Think back to your last deposit all those months ago.....could you have spent that money on anything else that would've given you better value entertainment wise?
Secondly, it seems you do well at lower limits but then struggle when you move up. This reminds me of the the old Tommy Cooper gag......"Doctor...Doctor...it hurts when I move my arm like this" to which Doctor Tommy replies "well don't do it then !!"
A silly comparison maybe but possibly valid in that if you win at low levels and, also importantly, have fun there, then why do you want to move up anyway?
There's no written rule that says you have to progress up the levels if you're happy and successful where you are.
Equally though if you do want to progress up the levels then obviously that is your choice, but you do need careful monitoring of your bankroll. It sounds like you maybe manage this correctly on the way up and only move up a level when you have sufficient funds to do so. However does the reverse apply? When you reached your highest level did you move back down when you lost the relevant amount of your roll? Not moving back down the levels if you start losing means the likelihood is you lose everything at the higher level.
Apologies if I've got the above totally wrong, no offence meant it was just an observation on how it looks from someone who knows you reasonably well.
One final thought, you are very well known and clearly very popular (and deservedly so!) with lots of people who play on the Blonde poker site. Whilst the upside to this is obvious and great fun there may well be a downside in that a lot of these people will have comprehensive notes on how you play. I suspect they may know your game better than you know theirs and this disadvantage becomes more of a factor as you move up the levels and come across a greater percentage of players who use their notes in this way.
One thing I would definitely consider as an interesting experiment would be to, maybe, change your name for a while. Not permanently but just to see if the anonymity made a difference in your results.
Overall, Suz I think the most important thing of all this for you to decide, is exactly why you play poker. Is it for the social element of the fun and camaradarie or is it to make as much money as possible? Once that goal is clear in your own mind I think it can only help.
and er.......second most important thing is to be careful posting in the early hours after a bad night's poker!
Go to bed and sleep on it first !
This is sooooooo spot on that its almost spooky........Keithy........you are the man of my dreams...ditch the wife and we can live of my (edit..ur) winnings :-)
I will do as you say and will open an account that no one knows about and see how I do...2 nights with no poker and its killing me.
I still have LOADS of action points but I meant what I said...I will NOT deposit on Blonde so fingers crossed.
What was it about that boy and the wolf?
Flushy do you EVER have something constructive to say?
Believe it or not..everytime I say I will never play poker again I MEAN IT...its not about the boy calling wolf.
I crave to become a better player but I am so frustated that the poker boom did not come 20yrs ago, if it had then I would have had more confidence to have pushed a lot faster (plus you would have still been in nappies) and honestly feel I might have been a contender.
As it is I know I lack confidence but I also know I have a game so you never know, there is a few years in me yet ;-)
I have also supported Blonde online since the day it opened and although I only play $5/10 stt/mtt games im pretty sure my rake has surpassed yours...how often do we see Jack Bauer online???
SO SHUT IT!!
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