Diary of a dirty,filthy ( soon to be ex ) smoker.

[pokefast]

Hello and welcome.

Sit yourselves down and make yourselves comfy.

This diary has been inspired by reading the fabulous diaries of Mr Prew and Mr Cooklin.

Whilst they both are clearly in a literary sense John Keats to my Dear Deidrie i shall give of my best!

I hope that getting my ramblings and thoughts down in print will help steel my resolve.


The journey along the road to tar ravaged lungs began 21 years ago when i was just 14.

I remember watching both my mum and dad smoke when i was a kid although my mum never inhaled which i never quite got really surely whats the point of that?!

Then there was the Sunday afternoon ritual of me with my dad staggering ( him obviously i was only 12 ) back from the rugby club with him telling me every week without fail that under no circumstances should i ever consider smoking as he'd wished he'd never started. Which kinda made sense as his mornings were spent emptying the contents of his lungs before tootling off to work.

Still to no avail i was young and worse than that i was a rebel.

I always hung around in an older crowd because i was cool ( lol yeah right )

One day i was offered a cigarette and thought why not i remember vividly coughing and spluttering my way through that first weed only to feel very very ill at the end of it to the point of  turning a nasty shade of green and emptying the contents of my stomach several times.

Still not to be put off one must look cool at 14 musn't one! I grew to tolerate it i can honestly say hand on heart i have never truely loved smoking.

I even devised a novel way of hiding the cigarettes from my parents by wrapping the packet of fags and the matches in an old freezer bag so they were waterproof and hiding the in the bushes. I really thought i was the bees knees! every angle covered.

I had a good friend John who is 12 years older than me and i first met him through the local snooker club where he was manager. We share a great love of national hunt racing and i remember very early on we organised a trip to Uttoxeter on one very cold and very wet Thursday. There were four of us going and John duly arrived to pick us all up. Now his car was a very old very rusty ford escort which i had heard him refer to as the " ash mobile " but did not know why. Well i kid you not that car was 3 inches deep in fag ash interspersed with about 2 million of Bryant and May's finest. I being young and hip! thought this was great but it wasn't great news for one of the party because they didn't smoke and were duly left behind under John's golden rule of " if ya don't smoke you ain't getting in ".

Sorry for the digression.

I never really thought about the damage smoking was doing to me during my twenties as i had a very active job so even though i was on twenty a day i still felt very fit. Although its hard to compare because i cannot actually remember how i felt before i started smoking because thats the trap i guess it creeps up on you so gradually you think its normal.

I tried briefly to give up before my son ( aged 6 ) was born but to no avail guess my heart wasn't truely in it.

Now though at 35 i have a hatred so fierce of the dreaded weed that its gonna put me on life tilt if i don't sort it.

I sit in the garden of a morning smoking the first one with my mug of tea and i dispise myself for doing it because it seems that no matter hard i try i cannot control this urge to smoke i don't need to do it hell i don't even wanna do it but i am doing it and could not figure out why and i'm sure the weed is contributing to my anxiety.

I am a physical wreck i take no exercise at all and feel terrible most of the time which is particularly bad because i don't even have the stamina to play with my son when he comes to stay. Its time to take control i feel.

So having tried various other methods i obtained a copy of Allen Carrs imo excellent book the easy way.

Having read it 5 times now to digest and understand i'm now ready for action so to speak.

I have one Lambert left and i'm going to smoke that then that is it over end of finito.

I just thought starting this would help me achieve my goal.

Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

As would any exercise advice bearing in mind i do not do any at all and would win olympic gold in the most unfittest man race.

If anyone else has any giving up stories, how hard was it withdrawal symptoms etc then i'd be grateful if you'd share them here.

I'll post regularly on how i'm doing etc.

Let the weed kicking commence

[Claw75]

no point in me giving you any advice, but good luck!!!

[TheChipPrince]

gl!

[TightEnd]

good luck

One of the few problems I've never had!

[Horneris]

Yessssss. Another diary.

[Colchester Kev]

Yessssss. Another diary.

Its in the lounge though .... Good stuff

and good luck in kicking the habit pokefast

[boldie]

have fun mate

[LLevan]

Good luck becoming a non-smoker.................did the same thing myself nearly 9 months ago via Allen Carr and the only bad news is I look 9 months preggers from eating all the pies.

[AdamM]

good luck. best thing I ever did was giving up smoking.
make sure you fill the void with something healthy from day 1.
regular, increasingly strenuous exercise and a decent diet and you won't recognise yourself in 12 months.

[Snatiramas]

Well i gave up five years ago and haven't missed it at all.......I did use a good hpnotherapist though but he was worth every penny and I wish you every success with your challenge............

The diary will help you some but it will also remind you of being an ex smoker

oh and which rugby club.
I like all these diaries it makes us feel like more of a family that care about each other and I reckon that can only be a good thing in a society that doesn't seem to give a toss.

[byronkincaid]

gl man, i found it hard to give up but I'm glad I did ldo

As would any exercise advice bearing

http://startingstrength.wikia.com/wiki/Starting_Strength_Wiki

[cia260895]

Diary of a dirty,filthy ( soon to be ex ) smoker.
« on: Today at 03:47:26 PM »

hows the 1st 3 hours gone?

 if your not smokin put an entry into your diary whenever you would have had a smoke??
always better to do something different to take yr mind off it


btw GL
                                                                                                         

[pokefast]

Well i gave up five years ago and haven't missed it at all.......I did use a good hpnotherapist though but he was worth every penny and I wish you every success with your challenge............

The diary will help you some but it will also remind you of being an ex smoker

oh and which rugby club.
I like all these diaries it makes us feel like more of a family that care about each other and I reckon that can only be a good thing in a society that doesn't seem to give a toss.

It was Bedworth rugby club not very good but riotous pre season,end of season well any part of the season tours really!

Why only last season some newbie failed to blow out his flaming Zambucca before digesting! the nurses sorted him out though 

I like these diaries too, not everyones cup of tea granted but they do somehow give a sense of belonging i find.

[pokefast]

Diary of a dirty,filthy ( soon to be ex ) smoker.
« on: Today at 03:47:26 PM »

hows the 1st 3 hours gone?

 if your not smokin put an entry into your diary whenever you would have had a smoke??
always better to do something different to take yr mind off it


btw GL
                                                                                                         

So far so good i feel slighltly elated this morning.

Like a huge weight is off my shoulders tbh.

Took myself out of my usual regime of lighting up whilst kettle is boiling just made my tea and did the washing up instead!.

My wife was delighted by this and apparently there is a pile of ironing under the stairs 

[boldie]

Diary of a dirty,filthy ( soon to be ex ) smoker.
« on: Today at 03:47:26 PM »

hows the 1st 3 hours gone?

 if your not smokin put an entry into your diary whenever you would have had a smoke??
always better to do something different to take yr mind off it


btw GL
                                                                                                         

So far so good i feel slighltly elated this morning.

Like a huge weight is off my shoulders tbh.

Took myself out of my usual regime of lighting up whilst kettle is boiling just made my tea and did the washing up instead!.

My wife was delighted by this and apparently there is a pile of ironing under the stairs 

Ah, welcome to my world my friend.I was very active when I quit smoking..every little urge was fought by picking up the "Flash wipes" and cleaning the house...spotless so it was ...I am used to not smoking now so don't clean as much anymore.