VPPs Today 1300
VPPs Total 53500
VPP Pace 43488
So I quit the session yesterday and felt really shitty about it. On PokerStars you have this runi it twice thing which is kinda nice to use and reduces the variance. However if I hadnt have used it this month I would have been up like 7k more than I am simply because I always win the first one. Ofc its just variance so Im not going to remove it, but its pretty annoying haha.
Had a v small session before football and had a small session again now after football just to keep the VPPs ticking away.
Football itself was really good. I worked really hard and didnt think about poker once. I mentioned last year that my mind was at a stage that even when I was on the field I would think about poker which made me have a few self doubts, but now I am really in it again. Some of the Italian guys nick named me Lionel as they think I play a little bit like Messi haha.
I have a pretty big mental leak now, I used to always look at my cashier, but now thats gone but now I always try to predict how Ive done and add up between the tables how Im doing and where Im at, if I know I am 3bis ahead then lose 1.5bis Im scared Im going to have a losing session, its kinda bad but so far this month Ive grinded really ok.
I have purposely not posted any graphs, when you see the monthly graph you will see there is a couple of moments that I would really have wanted to show, but this blog will be mainly about VPP accumulation and my progress to SNE.
When youre playing close to 2k hands per hour youre perhaps making 3500 decisions in that hour. That feels pretty crazy, in what job do you make 3500 decisions in one hour?!?! Anyway if I make say 5 mistakes in that hour I feel like im the biggest donk and really tilted at myself and I saw this in football today too. I was on a weak team with guys who were making dozens of mistakes which made me reallz want to try and play as good as possible to compensate and set a high level. I then made one bad pass in the opponents half under pretty big pressure and I was really, really annoyed and people were kinda confused at it, but I think its just because poker makes you set such high standards in competitive games and it transitions into other things such as football or ping pong.
One thing I am now setting high standards with right now is my sleeping. I slept 11am-6pm yesterday which is quite ridiculous. I really hope I can sleep 5am-1am or something more reasonable today.
I am going to start setting weekly goals at the start of each week and concentrating on them pretty hard.
Im also going to start posting 3 pictures a day that either sum up my blog post or my feelings in general and perhaps a picture of something that means alot to me or that Im very interested in.
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