Good luck with the tourney if you play it.
Has the losing $1300 in one night been the catalyst to all this new way of thinking about your approach to poker?
You are young so bound to go a bit mad along the way, if you can get into place what you say you want to,it should be a big help to your bankroll.
keep posting anyway, plenty of people will offer advice on here if you want/need it.
Cheers.
I won't be playing it. Tonight and the last three nights I have played I would say I have played very well. Been very creative with some of my plays and most of the time they have been paying off but eventually I haven't been getting the rub of the green late on.
Put simply what I must do now is probably double the amount of buy ins I allow myself so the swings are less severe and to absolutely bash the games for 12 hours a night on 24 tables at a time for about 80 tourns a night or more.
I really have got a fire in my big belly now not to fuck around anymore and with the safer buy ins rule and the increase in volume I would be really unlucky to hit the really harsh end of variance that rears its head despite doing everything right. Lowering my buy ins and playing more games is a recipe for more profitability and at a safer standard and when I have played with as many buy ins as i am thinking about doing now, variance hasn't mattered much at all because it is getting smashed across the face by ferocious volume.
I just haven't applied myself before. Been impatient. Looking longingly towards live ventures that are high risk and piss all over some solid online work when it doesn't go your way especially if you get your head turned by the rush of it all and the lure of the big win.
I have pretty much had it with the way I have been acting. Very foolishly and I think it has manifested itself too in my rapid weight gain over the last two years and much much recently my rather foolish exploits into football betting. I think Championship betting is okay and I will continue to do it but don't ever go over £200 a weekend, because you are breaching comfort barriers. I had laid out £2300 i bleieve across Boro and Palace to get a win and the results of the two made me get my money back. Then I wagered £1450 and I got lucky and got £2500 profit from it and I believe there was a third time where i wagered over £1000 but only lost £200.
I even have about £500 on this weekend. It is silly and I am reigning that in completely.
I think I have developed a really lazy nature and am taking the piss with how I am carrying myself. I need to start now with an exercise regime, a better diet, a poker plan, a money plan, and a life plan. Stick to it with obvious room for manoeuvre with it, but do anything other than what I am doing now. Which is basically, get out of bed, order a takeaway, don't leave the house unless its to the pub or meeting up with mates, play poker for only about 6 hours and do enough to get by.
Thought I would lay it all bare to say I am pretty pissed off. This has nothing to do either with my bankroll which is fairly comfortable (and probably a reason why I am being so lazy), but it is just sad to look back on the last year and say I really haven't achieved as much as I should have in terms of poker volume and other life ventures. I just can't let any more days slip by with me acting like a complete moron.
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