Glad to see you're adopting a different outlook to the game, like i've mentioned before there isnt really you can do about the outdraws - they are just part and parcel of the game. Personally i welcome the outdraws with open arms, the more times i'm outdrawn means the more times i'm getting my money in with the best hand. If i'm constantly getting my money in with the best hand then i will win more than i lose.
There is no way that a player will ever win a MTT without outdrawing an opponent somewhere along the line so at times yes luck will play a part, what you have to try to do is eliminate luck as much as possible and you wont go far wrong.
Every single member of this blonde forum will testify that bad runs happen to everyone whether your name is Phil Ivey playing regular high stakes cash games in large buy in MTT's or your average recreational player who plays the occasional £10 rebuy for a bit of fun down his local casino. Its how you learn to cope with the bad beats and use the experiences to try and further your game that will move you up onto the next level, like you say in your post - sometimes you cant explain what it is but you "feel" as though you have improved.
Poker sometimes can be a game of "feelings" - you just have to listen to them and trust your instincts.... Many a time you can be studying an opponent and you can't explain why but you just have a "feeling" he's bluffing, the more experienced you become and the better you get at the game then the more your "feelings" turn out to be correct.
Keep plugging away at it and although sometimes it can seem like a grind try and play with a smile on your face and enjoy yourself, after all its only a game
