The secret diary of a nobody making it big..

[chelseaboy]

Wow... Im hooked... Like the rest... WANT MORE!!!

[MTT DESTROYER]

Blondes highest viewed diary dies then this vague diary pops up promising the world.....

Highly doubt there will be any names mentioned

[kinboshi]

This name of this thread could be changed to "The Dean, The Early Years."

[Mrnobody]

Bonjour mes amis!

Millions of combinations and options running through my head but there is only one answer.

I've began putting myself in character. I haven't made a penny yet but walking round like a big shot, not arrogantly, just as a mindset. Repeating over and over like a mantra "I've got this!"
It's definitely helping, it lets me step away from my own personal flaws and into a person that's stronger, quicker and more interactive.
I've never been a massive social person, always kept a tight circle of friends, so learning to interact with my new "family" but keeping trust barriers up is a strange concept but coping well.

My first proper "sleep in" came this morning. It was nice. Had a great breakfast (AndrewT!!) followed up with a couple coffees, a cig and a good walk before hitting training feeling better than ever and absolutely killed it! After an awesome session, my trainer said tomorrow we can step it up a notch so even more cards in to the mix. Feeling great, even though I had some chicken that resembled road kill. My stomachs feeling it so had an early night ready, again, to impress.
I know that I'm not here for other people's approval, or praise, but a bit of acknowledgment to how hard I'm working is a nice boost.

I'm really starting to miss my family. Talking to my daughter and girlfriend is tough, they're doing really well though, I'm so proud of them. Pictures and momentoes, in my pocket at all times, makes me feel closer to them and a nice reminder of why I'm doing this.

Focus, focus, focus.

"The fight is won or lost far away from witnesses - behind the lines, in the gym, and out there on the road, long before I dance under those lights."
Muhammad Ali




 

[Omm]

Bonjour mes amis!

Millions of combinations and options running through my head but there is only one answer.

I've began putting myself in character. I haven't made a penny yet but walking round like a big shot, not arrogantly, just as a mindset. Repeating over and over like a mantra "I've got this!"
It's definitely helping, it lets me step away from my own personal flaws and into a person that's stronger, quicker and more interactive.
I've never been a massive social person, always kept a tight circle of friends, so learning to interact with my new "family" but keeping trust barriers up is a strange concept but coping well.

My first proper "sleep in" came this morning. It was nice. Had a great breakfast (AndrewT!!) followed up with a couple coffees, a cig and a good walk before hitting training feeling better than ever and absolutely killed it! After an awesome session, my trainer said tomorrow we can step it up a notch so even more cards in to the mix. Feeling great, even though I had some chicken that resembled road kill. My stomachs feeling it so had an early night ready, again, to impress.
I know that I'm not here for other people's approval, or praise, but a bit of acknowledgment to how hard I'm working is a nice boost.

I'm really starting to miss my family. Talking to my daughter and girlfriend is tough, they're doing really well though, I'm so proud of them. Pictures and momentoes, in my pocket at all times, makes me feel closer to them and a nice reminder of why I'm doing this.

Focus, focus, focus.

"The fight is won or lost far away from witnesses - behind the lines, in the gym, and out there on the road, long before I dance under those lights."
Muhammad Ali




 

But u haven't really told us anything about what your doing, unless I've missed something, u are in an unknown location being trained by unknown people learning something to do with cards and maybe computers. It hardly endears itself to having an interactive diary. How can we fall in love with what your doing and want you to be successful when u don't trust us enough to tell us what is going on. 

[Eso Kral]

Bonjour mes amis!

Millions of combinations and options running through my head but there is only one answer.

I've began putting myself in character. I haven't made a penny yet but walking round like a big shot, not arrogantly, just as a mindset. Repeating over and over like a mantra "I've got this!"
It's definitely helping, it lets me step away from my own personal flaws and into a person that's stronger, quicker and more interactive.
I've never been a massive social person, always kept a tight circle of friends, so learning to interact with my new "family" but keeping trust barriers up is a strange concept but coping well.

My first proper "sleep in" came this morning. It was nice. Had a great breakfast (AndrewT!!) followed up with a couple coffees, a cig and a good walk before hitting training feeling better than ever and absolutely killed it! After an awesome session, my trainer said tomorrow we can step it up a notch so even more cards in to the mix. Feeling great, even though I had some chicken that resembled road kill. My stomachs feeling it so had an early night ready, again, to impress.
I know that I'm not here for other people's approval, or praise, but a bit of acknowledgment to how hard I'm working is a nice boost.

I'm really starting to miss my family. Talking to my daughter and girlfriend is tough, they're doing really well though, I'm so proud of them. Pictures and momentoes, in my pocket at all times, makes me feel closer to them and a nice reminder of why I'm doing this.

Focus, focus, focus.

"The fight is won or lost far away from witnesses - behind the lines, in the gym, and out there on the road, long before I dance under those lights."
Muhammad Ali




 

But u haven't really told us anything about what your doing, unless I've missed something, u are in an unknown location being trained by unknown people learning something to do with cards and maybe computers. It hardly endears itself to having an interactive diary. How can we fall in love with what your doing and want you to be successful when u don't trust us enough to tell us what is going on. 

I think it is card counting of some sort, if it's Blackjack he says he has move onto another deck of cards so he is moving from 1 pack to 2, 3, 4 etc making sure whatever count they are using is correct.

Am interested to read as many years ago I learnt a basic count before realising the roulette wheel was more fun .

[Mrnobody]

Ok, I think the vagueness is starting to annoy some people. But before I go in to anything, please don't mistake my vagueness as lack of trust. As I'm staying as anonymous as possible, trust isn't the issue, it's more out of respect for the people that have come up with the idea.

I'm not the first to do this and I won't be the last. Like most things it's not all about what you know but who you know and if you're prepared to make a risk.

What I'm doing is a casino card game. One that's unheard of in Western Europe. A genius team have come up with a system to beat the casino, giving a 5%+ edge so I'm keeping my head down to learn it and  then traveling to as many countries as possible to find the game and play as much as possible and earning myself a 20% cut of the profits. That's really as specific as I can get so I hope that's cleared a few things up.

A few of the early comments have implied I was a little nieve, but looking back I believe the only nievity was how quickly I thought I'd pick it up. I'd love to be out there making big money by now but it's not working like that. I'm putting in the hours by all means but with distractions and worries about home, It's hard to keep 100% focused all the time and I'm a little worried that my lack of progress could result in the backers cutting their losses and sending me home.
So it's time to stop messing, it's all good missing loved ones but if thinking about that is going to send me home then it's no good for anybody and I'll be in a worse position than when I started.
I've always been a bit of a worrier and take negative things very personally which obviously make my mindset deteriorate.
I feel it's make or break at the moment and if I don't grasp it soon, it'll be time for home.
I don't want to let my family down or the backer that's put the upmost trust in me.
I need to keep head strong and do what I know I can do!

I'll keep you posted guys.

[DungBeetle]

Doesn't this tale just end with being beaten up by the chunky chaps in suits at the casino?

[Mrnobody]

My darkest half-hour......

It was 2 o'clock in the morning, after a great day of making up my uselessness in training, my average error dropped, my mindset rising and I was sat around the back of the hotel, having a nice cold orange juice to relax. I stood up to go to bed when it struck, a bowel condition I was diagnosed with on my 21st birthday. It was like a car crash and a knife attack all rolled in to one, into my gut. 

I folded.
Head first into the floor. 

The agonising, crippling spasm wouldn't let go. I couldn't move. Couldn't unfold to reach my phone. Could only look and make a feeble attempt to reach but with no use.
It was the second most scariest moments of my life, next to watching my girlfriend nearly die last year. 
After what felt like days, which turned out to be about half an hour, I crawled to the lift and made my way, sloth like, to my room.
The dilemma I faced next, after realising my health insurance wasn't valid here, was do I stay hoping it could get better? but if it didn't there was the real chance I couldn't fly home later and get stuck with massive hospital bills or bite the bullet and make my way home and get to a hospital. 

So I made the decision to go home. 

I'm really gutted. The once in a lifetime chance to improve mine and my family's life, set up the bar and have more time to spend with my daughter has back fired and currently on my way to a hospital in absolute agony with more financial problems than before, no job, mounting debt and interest charges and feeling like an absolute failure. 

Don't get me wrong, no amount of money is worth you're health but it doesn't take the sting out.

So I guess this is the end of line and the end of this blog. I've left some great people and an awesome opportunity out of nothing but bad luck.

The story of my life.

[FredW]

Unlucky bud, hope you feel better soon!

[arbboy]

incred scenes. A multi million pound staking operation and the $$$$$$$$$$$ man doesn't even have health insurance for his workers aboard!!!!  Sounds like you had a lucky escape.  Hope you get better on the NHS before the election when labour might ruin the country's economy and busto the nhs.  Be thankful you got home in time before May!  Sign on before the tories get a majority and you might get a few months of full level benefits before losers like you get told to get a real job and the benefits system is scrapped.

[Mrnobody]

incred scenes. A multi million pound staking operation and the $$$$$$$$$$$ man doesn't even have health insurance for his workers aboard!!!!  Sounds like you had a lucky escape.  Hope you get better on the NHS before the election when labour might ruin the country's economy and busto the nhs.  Be thankful you got home in time before May!  Sign on before the tories get a majority and you might get a few months of full level benefits before losers like you get told to get a real job and the benefits system is scrapped.

Wow......
You really know a lot don't ya....
I've never claimed in my life mate, worked my arse off since I was old enough to work. Yeah the countries a joke, I've paid a shit load into taxes and will never claim job seekers. I might not have a lot but what I do have I've worked for......
I took a risk but I won't ever expect someone else to bail me out. You telling me you've never been to the doctors or the dentist? Had a prescription? It's all subsidised by tax....
Don't act like you know someone because you've read a blog with a couple of personal facts 👍

[rfgqqabc]

incred scenes. A multi million pound staking operation and the $$$$$$$$$$$ man doesn't even have health insurance for his workers aboard!!!!  Sounds like you had a lucky escape.  Hope you get better on the NHS before the election when labour might ruin the country's economy and busto the nhs.  Be thankful you got home in time before May!  Sign on before the tories get a majority and you might get a few months of full level benefits before losers like you get told to get a real job and the benefits system is scrapped.

Wow......
You really know a lot don't ya....
I've never claimed in my life mate, worked my arse off since I was old enough to work. Yeah the countries a joke, I've paid a shit load into taxes and will never claim job seekers. I might not have a lot but what I do have I've worked for......
I took a risk but I won't ever expect someone else to bail me out. You telling me you've never been to the doctors or the dentist? Had a prescription? It's all subsidised by tax....
Don't act like you know someone because you've read a blog with a couple of personal facts 👍

I think he was just having a joke with you mate.

Still a bit bemused about the casino game no one in the Western World has heard of.

[tikay]

Ugh.

Hope you are soon recovered, & you can try again.

You are still a young man, plenty of time for this or other adventures in the future.

For now, get well soon. 

[SuuPRlim]

I think he was just having a joke with you mate.

hmmmm

you might get a few months of full level benefits before losers like you get told to get a real job and the benefits system is scrapped.

taking the unders on joke... 4.46am so going to assume drunk

Big arrboy fan ofc but drunk or not this is ridiculously out of line, the guy has found himself a bit of an angle and whether he is naive or not, being taken advantage of or not (still debatable I would say) he took it by the balls and went for it, no? I'd have thought you'd have been loving that and cheering him on! I dont see how this is "loser" behavior at all, he's down a couple of plane tickets, which might have been lengthy journeys given the description, but whatever he had a fucking go, surely if everyone on benefits had the same "have a crack" attitude then the state of the welfare system you are evidently concerned about would be a bit better off?

Not cool.

UL MrNobody, this is the first time you done anything like this by the sound of it please don't let it turn you off having another bash at something else exciting in the future, if at first you don't succeed and all that.