Well I'm glad its Sunday and the end of this week. Its been a rollercoaster week, and I have not enjoyed it. Its suddenly totally and completely "dawned" on me why this whole DTD thing is getting more and more of a chore every day - I have to answer to so many people. Who do I need in life to help me or give me anything - NOONE. Lets just look logically at the situation;
I have pumped and am pumping a huge amount of money and effort into the poker industry
This is what I have got in return so far:
1. Poker players moaning and groaning all the time, 99.9% of them that have never done anything for me and would not do if i asked them for bus fare home
2. Other poker businesses are looking for every opportunity to cause me difficulty
3. Various authorties hold ulitmate power over me, The Casinos, The Gambling Commission, Local Council, Police etc
4. I'm constantly being hassled for money, favours and demands from anyone who knows how to contact me
5. I'm working 20 hrs per day, doing other peoples jobs that I have actually employed to do these jobs
6. I have almost no spare time for my family, friends and other businesses (where I am actually respected)
7. I'm accessible to everyone and anyone, with no privacy for myself
8. I've put on a stone in weight and from bad eating and lack of time to exercise
9. I wake up every day to a new problem usually from some person that feels I owe them for life
10. I have spent a significant amount of my personal wealth for no return, financial or non financial
I always list things in 10's, I could go on and on.
Now, time to rewind this whole diary to the beginning. Why did I did this DTD venture?
To get rich - NO
To boost my ego - NO
To increase my profile in poker - NO
To make more friends - NO
To run a business - NO
So what the hell am I doing kissing all these peoples asses, online players, busineses, employees, poker pros, just about everyone I meet. I've got too embroiled in the business side, its just like running sf group, which I chose to get out of 4 years ago. A guy like me should be enjoying life, not having all this hassle - I've had more fun at a funeral.
It has to stop. Changes need to be made. You only get one life.
