Busto 33rd, an accident of timing, 10's into J's. Bugger.
I had a couple of deep runs like that last year busting just short of the $$$ and found it a bit soul-destroying.
It sounds like you at least got a min-cash though for your twelve hours graft.
GL tomorrow,
The min-cash was about $1,700 I think, but no, only 27 paid, & I was 33rd or 34th.
I've made top 100 5 from 5 now, & top 60 or 70 3 from 5, but just can't find the cards or "situations" at the sharp end, & tend to get a tad too timid, plus these boys tend to be a bit good, & maybe I need more luck than I used to, as the game has got much tougher.
Doubt myself? Yes, of course, it's the nature of the beast. Soul-destroying? Not so much, I have an implicit understanding of variance, & of course "variance" is the greatest excuse poker players have, the world over!
When I go awhile without a cash, I look back on the extraordinary dollops of luck I have had in poker whenever I have binked anything, thats the Band-Aid.
In a way, I prefer to run bad on my own money, when I am "fun staked", as I was in Vegas earlier this year, I was mortified that I was pissing away other peoples money, & their "sweat", & that did add a burden I did not much enjoy.
I've been here 5 days, & am 0 from 5, but I think about guys & gals who play the entire WSOP & sometimes run bad, & barely cash - what must THAT feel like?! I interviewed Mr Channing in Vegas iduring ths year's WSOP, & I think he told me he played 25 straight WSOP's without making a single Day 2! I can think of a 'Stars star or two who played the entire WSOP with barely a sniff of a cash, too.
I muse over all these things to help me keep it in context, & it really helps me.
Anyway, I'm loving every minute, the spirit remains 20/20, so does the sheer joy of being here, being a free agent, just enjoying myself. The Cash Games have helped enormously, too, & I'd like to play more of them more often, too. I'm seriously toying with the idea of returning in January &/or April, to do it again. I think I can self-finance in Omaha cash games, & really ought to play more of them, but the Tourneys are such a buzz - I was really really revved up to make Day 2 last night.
Anyway, thanks for giving me the opening to blather on about it all. I am a solitary soul, & very pleased to be, & I think endlessly & deeply about all this stuff, but it's not exactly compelling Diary reading, hence I don't often write about it publically, though I do keep personal notes as to my life & mindset, which I don't put in the Diary.
Hope you are well, Ralph, & have a great weekend.
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