I drove home to Cambridge after the game last night to spend a few days with my family over Easter, and I think I need the break to catch my breath after last night!
It was one of those high-octane fly by the seat of your pants (ridic phrase btw, what does it even mean?!) sort of games, where you just need to hold / and be able to put in thousands lighter than normal.
For example, the biggest pot I won, I got in £1700 at 1/2/4 with QQ, and held vs what was either 77, 88, 99 or TT. The betting went him open to £20 from the bb on my straddle, I made it £100, he made it £400 and I shoved and he called.
I had won £700 playing £1/1 before this game started, so was feeling great before this pot, and after it I was on cloud nine....
Then I lost it all back

Really sick hand, all started with one loose preflop call for £20...
I'm involved with the might

and see a flop of

and I made the first (or possibly second bad decision of the hand) by not donking the flop, in a spot I definitely should've done. I checked to the preflop raiser (a young guy from scunthorpe who seemed a very very good player - from scunthorpe I know right?), who cbet £50, Berridge peeled and I raised to £210, to bluff out the young guy (who would know I have a massive hand to raise when Berridge has flatted) and to get it in vs Berridge who only had about £1k at this point.
Anyway, unfortunately the young guy flatted and Berridge folded, and we saw a turn.

, pretty interesting card. Have so many outs, and a really strong range, have to continue here - I bet £370 into about £550 and he calls. Getting a bit sweaty now...
River

- really sick card. I make a straight but the bdr flush gets there. Decided to check. He is deep in the tank. I really don't wanna have to call a huge bet here. He cuts out about 6 pinks leaving 4 left on top of his £1k plaque. I'm thinking, that's OK I can call £600 no problem.
Then he slides the plaque in, with 475 on top of it...So the bet was £1475 into about £1300.

I didn't see how I could fold at the time. Now I have no idea why I called. I think the only hand he can have for value is AQss or KQss. My hand looks like a set, but I basically have the same as a set now anyway.
I hate my call now. He knows he's not repping much. I just thought he'd think I couldn't call that bet with a set. I'm folding my whole range on the river if I c/fold a straight there. Urgh I dunno. Thoughts? He was the only player at the table I could consider calling there for £1475. The only person I gave credit for bluffing / turning something into a bluff. Potentially could have QQ as well going for thin value (optimistic).
Also, a tiny part of me was thinking, which I know is dumb, but I'm only human - I'm still winning like £600 if I call and lose, and if I call and win, I'm winning like £5k...That didn't really change my decision much, I would've called anyway probably.
Anyway, he didn't have a hand I expected him to have. He had

...had to double take the board to see what that was...but it was indeed a higher straight...
Was pretty gutting, but to be honest, a really sick part of me loved it - the adrenaline of being in such a big pot, having such a tough decision (my biggest ever river call by some way) and even though I got it "wrong" and lost - I felt pretty happy that being involved in moments like this was my "job", and didn't really feel too bad.
I played a few more hands, then decided I needed to chill for 20 minutes to make sure my head was in the game. It was, I was feeling fine, went back, won £400 more then the game broke and I left winning £900, which is pretty good really. Happy.