I havent posted in a few days for a few reasons, I have been questioning after 3 weeks whether I can really do this and grind these 3.5 stg's day in day out after struggling to get out of this downswing, I have been going over my Hand histories on a daily basis with my coach and he says that im just on the wrong side of variance at the minute and that if I keep playing the way I am that I will soon come out the other side. Very similar story to when I started this challenge 3 weeks ago. I need to get it into my head that I cant win everyday

However I let "tilt" "ego" and just out right frustration get the better of me and went searching for the BIG bink. I dropped best part of $70 playing in big mtt's and failed to make any deep runs.
I think the main reason for the "tilt" was that I started to think like a loser... If I was getting it in ahead I was waiting for the suck out and if I was behind I knew I wouldnt hit. Just a negative horrible attitude that probably effected my game for the rest of the day and led me into a hole.
As it stands the running totals are
Games played: 589
Profit
-$85.09I need to concentrate more and not let myself get emotionally charged when I start to go on a bad run, this is easier said than done, but I think I have the mind set and the mentality to make sure that this was a 1 off and not let it get to me in the future. After all its only $85 not $850!
I am going to give 2 of the TCOOP events a run on my own dime. The 55 shootout and the 33$ speed on sat, I have sold 25% to my coach at spot and plan to play a few more as the week goes on. I know these events are a bit of a crap shoot but you have to be in it to win it.
I would offer to sell more on here as I dont really have the roll to play any of the big ones but I havent reached the elusive 300 yet and I have no real track record other than the few cashes that I had end of last year. CFC2012 on stars!