Had a few ups n downs today...
firstly we were going home, then not (sit by pool time), then home again, now not and we're doing some extra little jobs to 'help out'.
Sounds ok, not really fussed either way.
Went for a swim today, motivated by my mum who has lost 7 stone this year (sick win) and is not only feeling good, but looking good and has literally lost 15 years off herself this time last year. So proud I can't describe it. She seems really happy....
Little weirded when she tells me that her and my step-dad have 'rekindled' their relationship this year, mainly since my Uncle died a few months ago - its reminded them that life isn't forever. Nice story, I'm glad something positive has come out of it - just a shame I get some rather 'unwanted' images as a result.
Anyways, went for a swim and knocked in 10 lengths of front crawl, 10 min rest and 10 more lengths. Felt good after but its tougher than I remember. I find that after a few lengths I get a little messy with my breathing, then panic, then breathe worse, then panic more. Then I have to do the crawl with my head out of the water like some kind of drowning frog and get to the end, to get a breath and regain control. Not sure what's taken hold of me, but I only had 1 beer tonight and stopped myself half way through the second plate of food @ the thai restaurant. Couple this with my alarm being set for 0655 tomorrow so I can get up and have a morning swim....
WTF am i doing?
Hopefully I can jumpstart myself taking care of myself again.
I'm somehow at 100Kg, which just isn't right for someone at 5ft 11! (and 3/4

)
Target weight is going to be 85kg, which is a long long long way away... but if I can get a trend going then I hope I'll be able to keep it going. I've only lost weight properly once before and that was after my previous (first) big relationship ended and I had to get 'back in the game' so its tough getting motivated when I have an amazing, beautiful and sexy girlfriend in C. But hopefully it will be enjoyable for her too....
Bit random, but this is what's in my head.
Anyways, feeling a little tired... So going to send C an email and get off to sleep..... We will see whether or not I listen to my alarms and get up for a swim or not tomorrow.
I wouldn't bet on myself either way tbh. That is one thing I've thought of though, I'm a proper stubborn **** when I want to be, maybe I ought to make a bet with someone.... to do with getting to a certain weight in x time.
hmmmm...