The *official* "whatever happened to?" thread

[Claw75]

Stay well Keith. 

[Marky147]

Stay well Keith.  You've made comebacks twice before, so I'll hold out hope of a third one at some point when you're good and ready.

[Longines]

Stay well Keith. 

[Longy]

 

Hope you feel ready to comeback at some point.

[bobby1]

All the best Keith.

[BigAdz]

All the best Keith.

[Doobs]

Camel? Has he fallen out with us?

I was guessing it was the fall out from Euros@spotgate, lots of comments about him in his pants, I would have been concerned coming back too if members kept picturing me in my underwear

Not too upset to bring it up on twitter again.  

I don't want this to sound too melodramatic, because "bloke stops posting on an internet forum" isn't really a big deal, is it?

But a couple of concerned PMs hit my inbox over the last day or two and they touched me rather. So it wouldn't be fair to them (or anyone else who was worried) to just be wondering where if I was ok or not and where I had gone.

I've suffered from clinical depression for most of my adult life.

It comes and goes but it's there sitting in the corner of mind pretty much all of the time.

The last few months have been particularly sticky for me really for lots of different reasons.

I gave up visiting Blondepoker a while ago after some stupid confrontation I overreacted to and was happy with my decision, but tikay asked me to come back, I felt I was in a slightly better place mentally so I gave it a go.

Only to have another flare up almost immediately.

Blondepoker used to make happy, but now it either makes me angry when people like Doobs just makes shit up like he has in the post above, or sad when I am forced to take insults from illiterate half wits which I felt the moderators should have removed immediately.

And as I have very little inclination to play poker at the moment, and seemingly little in common with many posters any more it's best for me to step away until I am better equipped to deal with issues that make me sad or angry.

I get my internet fix on Twitter, where the block button is such a satisfying tool. See some of you there no doubt xx

All I did was make a throw away comment as you were taking part in the Andrew Teng "banter" on twitter.  I don't make shit up.

Cos ‏@Greekstein  Jun 4
So one UK player just won 450k in the millionaire maker and is now selling his $$ for a 5% vig. That just feels dirty to me.
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 Sam Razavi ‏@Sam_Razavi  Jun 4
@Greekstein Hadn't heard of him before yesterday but my respect went from one end of the spectrum to the other in 24 hours.
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 Keith Hawkins ‏@keiththecamel  Jun 4
@Sam_Razavi @Greekstein Little wonder when Pokernews mentioned his rail it didn't include a single British player.     


amongst others. 

I genuinely hope you get better soon.   Depression can be a terrible illness.

[redarmi]

Camel? Has he fallen out with us?

I was guessing it was the fall out from Euros@spotgate, lots of comments about him in his pants, I would have been concerned coming back too if members kept picturing me in my underwear

Not too upset to bring it up on twitter again.  

I don't want this to sound too melodramatic, because "bloke stops posting on an internet forum" isn't really a big deal, is it?

But a couple of concerned PMs hit my inbox over the last day or two and they touched me rather. So it wouldn't be fair to them (or anyone else who was worried) to just be wondering where if I was ok or not and where I had gone.

I've suffered from clinical depression for most of my adult life.

It comes and goes but it's there sitting in the corner of mind pretty much all of the time.

The last few months have been particularly sticky for me really for lots of different reasons.

I gave up visiting Blondepoker a while ago after some stupid confrontation I overreacted to and was happy with my decision, but tikay asked me to come back, I felt I was in a slightly better place mentally so I gave it a go.

Only to have another flare up almost immediately.

Blondepoker used to make happy, but now it either makes me angry when people like Doobs just makes shit up like he has in the post above, or sad when I am forced to take insults from illiterate half wits which I felt the moderators should have removed immediately.

And as I have very little inclination to play poker at the moment, and seemingly little in common with many posters any more it's best for me to step away until I am better equipped to deal with issues that make me sad or angry.

I get my internet fix on Twitter, where the block button is such a satisfying tool. See some of you there no doubt xx

You'll be missed mate but Blonde isn't going anywhere.  Funnily enough I sometimes have similar periods and I always know I am feeling better when I can start looking at blonde in small doses but if it aggravates it there is no upside.

[mondatoo]

All the best Keith.

[The Camel]

Camel? Has he fallen out with us?

I was guessing it was the fall out from Euros@spotgate, lots of comments about him in his pants, I would have been concerned coming back too if members kept picturing me in my underwear

Not too upset to bring it up on twitter again.  

I don't want this to sound too melodramatic, because "bloke stops posting on an internet forum" isn't really a big deal, is it?

But a couple of concerned PMs hit my inbox over the last day or two and they touched me rather. So it wouldn't be fair to them (or anyone else who was worried) to just be wondering where if I was ok or not and where I had gone.

I've suffered from clinical depression for most of my adult life.

It comes and goes but it's there sitting in the corner of mind pretty much all of the time.

The last few months have been particularly sticky for me really for lots of different reasons.

I gave up visiting Blondepoker a while ago after some stupid confrontation I overreacted to and was happy with my decision, but tikay asked me to come back, I felt I was in a slightly better place mentally so I gave it a go.

Only to have another flare up almost immediately.

Blondepoker used to make happy, but now it either makes me angry when people like Doobs just makes shit up like he has in the post above, or sad when I am forced to take insults from illiterate half wits which I felt the moderators should have removed immediately.

And as I have very little inclination to play poker at the moment, and seemingly little in common with many posters any more it's best for me to step away until I am better equipped to deal with issues that make me sad or angry.

I get my internet fix on Twitter, where the block button is such a satisfying tool. See some of you there no doubt xx

All I did was make a throw away comment as you were taking part in the Andrew Teng "banter" on twitter.  I don't make shit up.

Cos ‏@Greekstein  Jun 4
So one UK player just won 450k in the millionaire maker and is now selling his $$ for a 5% vig. That just feels dirty to me.
Details     Reply  Retweet  Favourite   More
 Sam Razavi ‏@Sam_Razavi  Jun 4
@Greekstein Hadn't heard of him before yesterday but my respect went from one end of the spectrum to the other in 24 hours.
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 Keith Hawkins ‏@keiththecamel  Jun 4
@Sam_Razavi @Greekstein Little wonder when Pokernews mentioned his rail it didn't include a single British player.     


amongst others. 

I genuinely hope you get better soon.   Depression can be a terrible illness.

Without wishing to get into an argument.

I stopped posting because of the fallout of the Micheal Piper thread. Of which I regret some of my involvement.

Those tweets are clearly about Andrew Teng. Which I do not regret.

Two completely different subjects.

So you are factually incorrect if not deliberately shit stirring.

On a different note, thankyou for the kind messages and PMs. I am at a very low ebb right now, but I'm sure I'll be back one day.

[dreenie]

Hi Camel, I had no idea, tbh I thought u may have got depressed cos of the dollars I've knocked in every time you bought :/ (light hearted joke, b4 the police arrive 😃).

I wish you well, I can relate to depression a lot as it goes, I take some silly medication every day to keep on an even keel. I already know I'm mad so that's half my battle lol.

Anyway, I hope you feel better soon, I find it really quite sad when people don't seem to get the whole depression thing, and find a lot of ppl are ignorant with it, specially if you gamble because THAT has to be the reason why we are depressed. utter codge imo, I mean don't get me wrong it gives u much more freedom when you are winning but honestly if someone asked me did the money ever make me happy, I would say no every time, my happiness came from making other people happy funnily enough.

Best wishes Keith and always here if you want a chat xxx

[scotty77]

Take care Keith. 

[dreenie]

And in relation to blonde members, everyone literally everyone is going to have different opinions, that is fact, I admire your determination of plugging on with what you see is right. half the players these days don't get respect amongst gamblers, I've been guilty of it in the past.

A lot of things on any forum can be taken way out of context. I mean I used to let it bother me when I would specifically ask someone a question and they couldn't be bothered to answer, or you would congratulate people on their success and they would just act all arrogant and Billy big time, nowadays I just laugh inside. I don't dislike these ppl, I just find it weird how a lot of people seem so fickle. I take Mondi as a classic example, if he won 500k 2 morrow still think he would be gracious and dignified with all his posts he would not ignore people who he thought were lesser than him and would still continue his poker professionally. I haven't even met monda and I just know he is a decent boy, and I think if he had anything to say he would come right out and say it.

You and ppl like Cos are good for blonde because you say it how it is and people don't always like to hear the truth.

but remember everyone is going to forge an opinion, most people think I'm a complete mug, but I try to brush it off as if they sat down and had a dinner with me they would probably come to a completely different conclusion.

[dreenie]

half the things people write on here, they wouldn't dream of saying to your face so honestly wouldn't worry about it.

forums create debates, not everyone agrees and sometimes it can get very heated. It's a shame but that's life I guess, if there was no drama it would be pretty boring, and not being funny but loads of people secretly love some of the debates you create because it creates drama and not everyone will agree which in turn makes it go all like eastenders and we all know that everyone loves a good episode of eastenders x

yabba dabba do


p.s I have not consumed any alcohol this evening. 😃

[dreenie]

Sorry but I feel quite strongly about this,  so gonna leave u a song to hopefully cheer you up xx


Michael Buble - Thats Life: http://youtu.be/Li0z_tETXWg