Days 102 and 103 - Somebody mentioned after the last update that they thought I might possibly care more about this thread, and the number of views it's recieved, than my actual results. A fair enough point because there was much rejoicing over the former, but no mention from me about the ROI dropping below 8%. There is an element of truth to this observation, I'll try to explain what I mean.
Firstly, I'll admit that I care more about finishing 4,000 STTs in 4 months than my ROI %. It's completely the wrong attitude, but so long as I finish this while making a little bit more money, I'll be happy. Yes the ROI is showing a general downward trend. Everyone knows there's only one statistic that really matters though. If I can keep that red pen off the thread, that's enough for me now. I'm nearly mentally spent so I won't lose any sleep if the ROI drops even further, so long as the dollars keep coming in.
I'm not playing the greatest poker I could at the moment, I'm perhaps even approaching a burn-out. If I weren't in the middle of this mission, now would be a pretty good time to take a break from poker or at least step down the intensity of my play, play fewer tables, less hours a day etc. I'm not going to be doing that though. So long as even $1 profit is made, I'll keep plugging away.
My principle raison d’être why completing this is important to me, is not to complete a monster thread or to prove something to it's readers, nor is it to maintain a certain ROI statistic. No, my main motivation to nail this, is that I feel I have to prove something to myself. To provide evidence that Thomas David William Stott is not a goddamn quitter. There are far too many examples in my life of me taking the easy road, of me doing a half-assed job. I know what they are and I can't hide from them. I need to finish what I set out to do, in the time I've allowed myself to do it, in order to feel more confident about attempting both poker and non-poker challenges in the future.
The benefits of getting this job done transcend what you'll see in the Pokerstars FPP store. For me, this has become about more than just Supernova status and silly little bonus points.
It's gone and gotten personal.
Days 102 and 103 Results : +$1,035 (+$14,971 total)
ROI : 8.1 % (after 3,062 tournamentals)
RDR : 62.5 (15 overs remaining)
There was mention also, that I should, perhaps, set myself a new ROI target. (Looking unlikely to reach the intended 15%, unless I can find some sort of cheat mode)
8.5% whilst seven-tabling makes the same $$$ as 15% whilst four-tabling. It seems as good a target as any now.
As stressed above though, the ROI hasn't got me worried. If it finishes up at 8.5% or higher, obviously I'll be delighted, but I will not consider myself to have failed if it doesn't.
It would be a big ask, today is a comma day and it's only climbed 0.2%.
It's been a great day in so much that I have managed to emotionally detach myself from the fact that I've made some decent coin. (
Here's an article from the tankbank on the subject, apologies for the shameless promotion ) It's perhaps harder to do this following a win than after a loss. It's probably not because I've perfected the "not caring" ability yet, rather that I'm just too tired to get overly enthusiastic at the moment.
I can just about strain myself to click on the smileys.....ughhh......
...that was tough.
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