Tonight was very hard to take mentally.
I went in with the plan of playing 8 tabkles maximum and just late regging reg speeds to fill table space up. I'm not going to moan about running bad, it is worse than I've ever encountered with around 15/40 tournies getting knocked out with 2 outers but its how it effects me mentally that I'd like to speak about/concerned about.
I'm not sure if this is normal, but I'm literally scared to get it all in a lot of the time now. For example I had 99 on 952 and instead of thinking how am I going to win the most money here I was thinking "Which way will I lose here? 1 outer quads? 2 outer overpair? Gutshot" It was really weird to think like this and I didn't like it (he hit a 2 outer in the end fwiw)
The money obviously matters but really not concerned about that at all, I love playing poker and I love getting deep in tournaments and having battles, I really thrive on it, playing what you think is your A game without getting any rewards, a sweat is enough, I don't even care about winning anymore

is very hard to take.
I remember making a very similar post like this around SCOOP last year and then deleting it because I felt guilty moaning about running bad, it's been 10x worse here, but basically before SCOOP I was playing 5x a week and just crushing smaller fields then SCOOP came and I got brutalised. I had looked forward to SCOOP for months and months and then it came and I wanted it to go and for my old tournaments to come back. It's exactly the same with WCOOP now. Perhaps its an A-HA moment, it isn't a great idea for me to play the schedules I am playing, loading the 30c, 10c,

or any other small tournament will never be as good as opening a 500nl or 1knl table. WCOOP has shown me that I love tournaments, I really do, but I need to be more selective about what I play. Previously I was 30 tabling, now I'm prefering playing 8 tables and playing A-game.
Last time in the last leg of SCOOP I managed a final table in the 20c, a deep run in the main and a big run in a bounty tournament, lets hope it repeats itself here..
One thing I am running well in is swaps, I've paid out around 60-70k more in swaps this year than I've received, but had some decent ones this WCOOP. Lets hope I'm shipping my friends some money next weekend.
Here is some hands I boomed from the session today:
Cal decided to jam this hand pre flop this deep in this structured tournament, hes the goat so I'm sure it's good/fine, but it seems v ott to me at first glance
http://www.boomplayer.com/poker-hands/Boom/10918455_7DBA11D857My exit in the 2k, not sure this guys turn call is real, but whatever.. Flop would be close if he wasn't a whale, would almost always check back I guess. River has to be a value bet if hes calling turn this wide
http://www.boomplayer.com/poker-hands/Boom/10921309_9D705ED019Good reg jams pre, surely this has to be awful.?
http://www.boomplayer.com/poker-hands/Boom/10922372_0999E454D3Interesting hand vs Middy, really like the way he played it with timings etc, was pretty shocked when I saw what he had, wp by him vs my range for sure though
http://www.boomplayer.com/poker-hands/Boom/10923536_C3D201A956They all seem like bad beats but they wern't the bad ones from today, I'll try to post more weaktight spots from tomorrow, but its hard on a Sunday with so many tables I guess.
Imfromsweden who is known by a lot of people on here is a good friend of mine, we think very similar in No Limit. He's just learning PLO right now and after WCOOP we're going to do a lot together and try to get very good together. He kind of helped me as I was moving up mid stakes, in terms of just chatting everyday as we grinded in the same office and staked people and coached people together, we agree on a lot of things so glad we can do it together rather than hiring a coach, its more fun when you teach yourself.
Good night and good luck all!