Degenerate Diaries: The Chronicles Pt. 2

[zerofive]

I'm watching poker from the dealer's chair, and I can't quite think of the words... Bet sizing just almost "talks" to you. It's like these players are telling a story down the streets, and most of the time it goes something like, "Hi, my name is x, I'm y years old, and these are my exact hole cards. My friends tell me I'm a good card player, but in actuality I just get an inordinate amount of premium starting hands (and even when I don't, I overvalue hands with huge reverse implied odds and just curse my luck when I'm no good at showdown.) Also, I've never heard of physical tells so, combined with your almost precise range assessment, my sweaty palms and heavy breathing should tell you the rest. The end."

I started to remember why I thought I could make it as a professional in the first place. When I'm neither winning nor losing, and I can apply some objectivity, poker becomes second nature. The floor managers at Dusk used to mock me for that, as I was perhaps a little ostentatious when I handed my notice in. I said something to the effect of, "why am I dealing games I could crush?" Obviously I took a ribbing for starting out at 50/1. "I thought you could crush the 1/2? Stop being a pussy," they said. I obviously knew that I would have to start at the bottom, but I didn't truly appreciate how stressful it would all be having no money at all. I managed it for a few months, but money really did become an issue. This job as a dealer will serve to generate a liferoll of a few thousand before I restart the grind. Really gutted I didn't quit two days earlier, as I would have been able to effectively freeroll my new car which I'm picking up on Thursday.

Even though I'm mostly filled with confidence and positivity, I was reminded of the dark side of this game from watching an acquaintance of mine, who is a reg at Derby. It just seemed, no matter how good he got his chips in, he just couldn't win a showdown. I shoveled some big pots away from him last night and I felt horrible about it. Not only did it feel "unfair," but also I remember how that feels. Doing chunks; dropping 4BI in the softest 50/1 games and losing the pot that will get you out of it in the most retarded fashion; the constant battering; the soul destroying string of terrible starting hands right after you reload. I know it's all emotional, and if I can just learn to #lovethegame, then I reckon I might have a shot at this professional poker malarkey.

[PeeJay]

I think as a poker player you need to be able to dominate your emotions and not be overshadowed by them.

[Bully87]

GG me but both were folds. No beef with the game. Still #lovethegame.

[cambridgealex]

I think as a poker player you need to be able to dominate your emotions and not be overshadowed by them.

#lovesthecashgame

[cambridgealex]

GG me but both were folds. No beef with the game. Still #lovethegame.

Wp. Attitude is so underrated in this game.

[SuuPRlim]

I think as a poker player you need to be able to dominate your emotions and not be overshadowed by them.

excellent

[Bully87]

GG me but both were folds. No beef with the game. Still #lovethegame.

Wp. Attitude is so underrated in this game.

Mine is by no means good but is a lot better, I find myself berating myself rather than the oppo for having 23o and crushing me while Sean sweeps away my stack!
Learning the hard way via monetary value is probably the best way!

[zerofive]

How's this for foresight? Quit poker + buy new car = immune from car curse. Learned from Eureka's mistakes.

[tikay]

I'm watching poker from the dealer's chair, and I can't quite think of the words... Bet sizing just almost "talks" to you. It's like these players are telling a story down the streets, and most of the time it goes something like, "Hi, my name is x, I'm y years old, and these are my exact hole cards. My friends tell me I'm a good card player, but in actuality I just get an inordinate amount of premium starting hands (and even when I don't, I overvalue hands with huge reverse implied odds and just curse my luck when I'm no good at showdown.) Also, I've never heard of physical tells so, combined with your almost precise range assessment, my sweaty palms and heavy breathing should tell you the rest. The end."

I started to remember why I thought I could make it as a professional in the first place. When I'm neither winning nor losing, and I can apply some objectivity, poker becomes second nature. The floor managers at Dusk used to mock me for that, as I was perhaps a little ostentatious when I handed my notice in. I said something to the effect of, "why am I dealing games I could crush?" Obviously I took a ribbing for starting out at 50/1. "I thought you could crush the 1/2? Stop being a pussy," they said. I obviously knew that I would have to start at the bottom, but I didn't truly appreciate how stressful it would all be having no money at all. I managed it for a few months, but money really did become an issue. This job as a dealer will serve to generate a liferoll of a few thousand before I restart the grind. Really gutted I didn't quit two days earlier, as I would have been able to effectively freeroll my new car which I'm picking up on Thursday.

Even though I'm mostly filled with confidence and positivity, I was reminded of the dark side of this game from watching an acquaintance of mine, who is a reg at Derby. It just seemed, no matter how good he got his chips in, he just couldn't win a showdown. I shoveled some big pots away from him last night and I felt horrible about it. Not only did it feel "unfair," but also I remember how that feels. Doing chunks; dropping 4BI in the softest 50/1 games and losing the pot that will get you out of it in the most retarded fashion; the constant battering; the soul destroying string of terrible starting hands right after you reload. I know it's all emotional, and if I can just learn to #lovethegame, then I reckon I might have a shot at this professional poker malarkey.

Tremendous Post!

The opening para does that wonderful "obverse" thing, where a situation, when viewed upside down, or inside out, is so much easier to understand.

[kinboshi]

It's good, except that no one gets an inordinate number of premium hands dealt to them.

[zerofive]

Deepstack time. Let's do this.

[DMorgan]

gl mate, do wins

[Bully87]

Ship it! And dont muck straights...

[tonytats]

You was doing ok till the ak v tens hand ul ,I thought u played well

[cambridgealex]

How did it go Sean?