Degenerate Diaries: The Chronicles Pt. 2

[JK]

Never forget that first night. Should I mention I dealt those 3 hands or not? Lol.

Keep up the good work mate, definately agree the new Sean is better. Hated seeing th old Sean lose a £20 pot and spunk off £1k

[stato_1]

I love sean. There I said it

[paulhouk03]

do you play many tourneys or just cash?

[cambridgealex]

I love sean. There I said it

Gay

[zerofive]

do you play many tourneys or just cash?

Only the occasional £100-200 live MTT as a shot. Can't really afford to play many off my own back, and I'm not sure anyone would be willing to back me long-term given the tiny volume and the miniscule profit I'm showing. So - in short - just cash.

[GreekStein]

Do you smoke weed sean?

[zerofive]

Do you smoke weed sean?

Probably wasn't a serious question, but this is something that I get asked quite often. Most people that have met me will have presumed that I was stoned at the time. I have the droopy eyes, the slurry voice, the demeanor of someone who doesn't have a clue what's going on, I have a nervous twitch, etc. I've always been this way. And the short answer is "no."

When I was younger, around 13, I'd reached a stage in my education where I was bored of turning up with all the right answers that all of my peers now in middle management jobs were struggling with no-end. And I was lonely. At the time I couldn't understand why I was always picked on. For a while I thought about death, but - as much as I tried to convince myself I was an atheist - I was petrified of what might lay on the other side. So drugs it was. It started off harmlessly enough, as it always did in the drugs education videos they made us watch once a week in PSE, but before too long I was taking class A's like they were medication. They gave me the confidence to be the exciting human that was trapped beneath the layers of petrified, awkward child. I could make eye contact, I could talk to people I'd never met without cowering, I could dance (maybe.) I knew they were killing my brain (and my back...) but this was who I always wanted to be.

Old Sean sounds a lot more fun.

It was not to last, though. On the new year's eve before my 18th birthday, I overdosed on a couple of things. I shan't divulge too much information, but it was pretty serious, and apparently I'm lucky to be alive. Since that night I've been very prone to anxiety attacks, mild hallucinations, mood swings, etc. I developed a crippling case of OCD, which for the most part I have managed to beat. Needless to say, I can't touch drugs anymore, or alcohol for that matter. So to anyone reading this who has been kind enough to offer me a drink over the years, I hope you will appreciate that I wasn't being rude or ungrateful.

Sorry if this is all too much information.

[Pyso]

Bloody hell m8, that's some sherious sh1t.

Why do so many poker players have such amazing pasts?

I've never done drugs or had a gambling addiction. What the hell is wrong with me?!!!

[zerofive]

Bloody hell m8, that's some sherious sh1t.

Why do so many poker players have such amazing pasts?

I've never done drugs or had a gambling addiction. What the hell is wrong with me?!!!

Sounds like you don't have enough personality disorders. Maybe you should see a therapist about that.

[EvilPie]

Bloody hell m8, that's some sherious sh1t.

Why do so many poker players have such amazing pasts?

I've never done drugs or had a gambling addiction. What the hell is wrong with me?!!!

You should try it mate. It's really good fun.

[GreekStein]

Hi sean,

Sorry if the question triggered a few things you'd have rather not talked about. I did assume that you smoked weed cos of one or two of the things you'd mentioned.

Do you mind saying a bit more about how you got into them. How old were you? Why did you decide to for the first time? How did you get hold of them? How did it feel? Etc

[zerofive]

Hi sean,

Sorry if the question triggered a few things you'd have rather not talked about. I did assume that you smoked weed cos of one or two of the things you'd mentioned.

Do you mind saying a bit more about how you got into them. How old were you? Why did you decide to for the first time? How did you get hold of them? How did it feel? Etc

I don't mind talking about it. It's just a long story that doesn't segue easily, so I don't tell it very often. As for how I got into it, I'm not entirely sure. I used to skateboard semi-professionally, and a lot of the people I skated with were recreational users, so I suppose I just got sucked into it. The reasons people get into it are all reasonably similar: unhappy with life, need to take the scenic route, etc. Pretty sure I'm being levelled here, though.

If you don't mind, what things did I mention that drew you to this conclusion? Do you smoke?

[zerofive]

What a ridiculous night of poker. I lost two £400 pots and still cashed out a £320 profit.

In a straddled pot behind a few limpers, I raise the button to £11 with and get three callers. It gets checked to me on , which seems like an okay board texture to cbet. The big blind calls, and the fishbowl to my immediate right minraises to £56. I'm not sure if I'm ever not getting it all in on this flop, especially as I witnessed him go broke with Q9 on 4 5 6 Q 7 a few hands earlier; "so I just shove." The big blind calls it off for another £60 and the fishbowl calls for another £90. Now the strangest thing happens: they both start putting their coats on. The turn comes the and the river . The big blind reveals . Sigh. Now everyone looks to the fishbowl to confirm the direction of the sidepot. After 20 seconds or so, and several instructions by the dealer to turn his hand over, he finally unveils for a flopped set. Before anyone can get in their grumbles regarding his terrible etiquette, he scoops up the pot, shoves it in his coat pocket and heads over to the blackjack tables. The big blind then accuses me of slowrolling because I didn't show my losing hand, despite assuring him that the ace was good. Windowlicker.

The very next hand, I was reacquainted with my old friend . We exchanged pleasantries, and wasted no time in setting up for a game I like to call "cause the maximum irregularity within my ventricles and atria." We began the procedure by 3betting the £4 open called in two spots to £22. Next, we ensured that the small blind cold called with vendetta, and saw the flop heads up. If not a little predictably, we arranged for a glaring overcard on a board otherwise dry in nature. to be precise. With a sigh, I checked back the flop which bought me some sympathy in the form of the . And I checked back again. The river came the and the steaming spewtard threw in £50. After signing a deal with a talent scout in Hollywood, I set him in for another £125~. He bulldozed his stack over the line, and declared "NUTS!" Just as the paramedics were calibrating the biphasic defibrillator, he tables the . Also known in the industry as "not the nuts." Windowlicker.

The rest of the day's wages came from turning the nut flush against PizzicatoXev who, despite two claims to the contrary, does not look just like me.

August crush thus far: £1,093.50 (£18.15/hr)

I've registered for the APAT heads up event on Thursday afternoon, and the PLO side on Monday. I might get some volume in this month yet. Peace.

[cambridgealex]

What a ridiculous night of poker. I lost two £400 pots and still cashed out a £320 profit.

In a straddled pot behind a few limpers, I raise the button to £11 with and get three callers. It gets checked to me on , which seems like an okay board texture to cbet. The big blind calls, and the fishbowl to my immediate right minraises to £56. I'm not sure if I'm ever not getting it all in on this flop, especially as I witnessed him go broke with Q9 on 4 5 6 Q 7 a few hands earlier; "so I just shove." The big blind calls it off for another £60 and the fishbowl calls for another £90. Now the strangest thing happens: they both start putting their coats on. The turn comes the and the river . The big blind reveals . Sigh. Now everyone looks to the fishbowl to confirm the direction of the sidepot. After 20 seconds or so, and several instructions by the dealer to turn his hand over, he finally unveils for a flopped set. Before anyone can get in their grumbles regarding his terrible etiquette, he scoops up the pot, shoves it in his coat pocket and heads over to the blackjack tables. The big blind then accuses me of slowrolling because I didn't show my losing hand, despite assuring him that the ace was good. Windowlicker.

The very next hand, I was reacquainted with my old friend . We exchanged pleasantries, and wasted no time in setting up for a game I like to call "cause the maximum irregularity within my ventricles and atria." We began the procedure by 3betting the £4 open called in two spots to £22. Next, we ensured that the small blind cold called with vendetta, and saw the flop heads up. If not a little predictably, we arranged for a glaring overcard on a board otherwise dry in nature. to be precise. With a sigh, I checked back the flop which bought me some sympathy in the form of the . And I checked back again. The river came the and the steaming spewtard threw in £50. After signing a deal with a talent scout in Hollywood, I set him in for another £125~. He bulldozed his stack over the line, and declared "NUTS!" Just as the paramedics were calibrating the biphasic defibrillator, he tables the . Also known in the industry as "not the nuts." Windowlicker.

The rest of the day's wages came from turning the nut flush against PizzicatoXev who, despite two claims to the contrary, does not look just like me.

August crush thus far: £1,093.50 (£18.15/hr)

I've registered for the APAT heads up event on Thursday afternoon, and the PLO side on Monday. I might get some volume in this month yet. Peace.

Excellent tr. Most entertaining. Good win, good month keep it up.

I have a 3day spell back in notts to finish off the month. 72hour lockdown to grind out of the months hole?! Moral support reqd.

[Mitch]

Always look forward to your reports Sean

Keep up the crush!